A life filled with pain and sorrow

new blog address

2008-03-01T01:34:00.001+08:00

hi, ive moved again...do relink

facadesoflonliness.blogspot.com

thanks!

Public announcement

2005-10-29T15:39:00.000+08:00

Hi, everyone. This is to finally reveal my other blog which is the one i am using. My new blog is ineedtobealone.blogspot.com, pls change all your links, whatsoever. Thank you.

Listen up all you bitches

2005-08-31T17:13:00.000+08:00

Just wanted to tell everybody that i have created another blog, so this blog will be more or less unused. I will be tagging on some of your tag-board really soon.

The notice!

2005-08-11T11:38:00.000+08:00

This blog will be only blog once a week or once a fortnight....i decided not to blog so much already... Though this blog records many of my memories, i have am stiu sticking to my plan. The tagboard is gone and the contacts are all deleted. I might create another blog, dunno? But it will be more of a quiet one without people interupting. Once again, i like to apologise to all those blogs which are dirtied by the stupid person imposting me...i am so sorry...

Crazy Imposter!

2005-08-10T14:57:00.000+08:00

This is so stup la...some people just cannot admit that they have lost and to just give up...now wads the new trick, to tag on everybody's blog that is listed on my blog...PUH-LEASE tad is sooo lame...Ok, if the person imposing as me is reading this, pls stop being dumb, you make yourself look like you are from the mental hospital lah...so low-down..though you are using my name, everybody knows that it is not me who is tagging la...it is so obvious because i dun use vulgarities and i dun tag on everybody's blog like gen rong rayston and zheng kai. Whoever you are, it is up to you whether you want to stop, you can hate me and my whole group of friends but why dun you just leave your own life and stop bothering others because that will only make people hate you more. I know who you are anyway but i am not gonna reveal your name here because i dun wanna cause more trouble, you can tag on anybody's blog, it is up to you but i advice you to stop as everybody knows it is not me, it is really obvious.

wadeva

2005-08-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

Well, hasn't update my blog for a long long time and since i am very free today, i shall update. I am talking a little bit to junfeng now. The reason is because he is not as much involved in that past situation. But, talking to him dosen't mean that we are friends because Junfeng can only remain a neutral friend to me now, nothing more than that. My particular blog entry is about yesterday the whole day in Istana and the Esplanade. I could say yesterday was a meaningful day and i got to know many people better. We went to school rather early at 9.30 and had warm ups before proceeding to Istana. Surprisingly, WYW came... I wunt go into details but the performance was quite ok. Although the stupid MC called us Chinese High School when we are from Catholic High but luckily he changed tad in time. It is really nice to see tad the Peace Statue is going to be in my school and just proud to be in this school. After that we went to the Istana where we had to perform again but this time for our own school concert. Yet again, yesterday was one of the day where i felt the worst and that i realised that i was no more in the group of friends. Everybody hate the feeling of being left-out but people like to give others that feeling. That was the day, my heart died and that was the day i felt so bad inside. That was the sec4 last performance with us and everyone was feeling rather sad. I was sad but i knew i wasnt accepted there together with them and if i would go there somebody would just say i am irritating or annoying. I held my anger and my disappointment and did what AG told me to stay away first so i just watch from a distance, feeling left out and alone. I talked to Jia Jun and Wai Neng about our primary school life and how much fun we had then. Many of the sec4 shed tears and were just really sad for leaving this choir. Finally someone realised me and that person was Jing Kang. He hugged me and said he will remember me and that was the only time i realised that somebody cares. JingKang talk to me about things and i listened as tears just dripped out of my eyes. I am so glad you know how i really feel. I tried, i reall tried but i just dunno why things are like tad and people are like tad. Kenny also told me about the message he saw on someone's phone and someone typed it. I was hurt after hearing it and that i did not know he was feeling like this all the while. I was filled with disappointment when i held the primary school boy's hand and we walked onto stage where everybody was singing the birthday song and tads where something happen again. But all those sadness and disappointment, madness and anger happen again. It was the grand Finalle and everybody gathered on stage, some with light sticks and some without. They were giving out flowers to the conductors and the students were waving their lightsticks. The whole thing started with a single throw. Apparently, Mr Leong gave the bouquet of flowers to GW and Matthew Lu snatched the thing from him and threw it on the other side of the choir. The bouquet hit someone's head and fell and it was continued thrown here and there. Then he took Rayson's light stick and threw it to the other side of the choir as well. After that light stick fling up into the air, the chinese orchestra members whicn were standing on the second floor threw their sticks towards the audience and some throwing it to the audience of the second and third floor near the stage. The The band and the primary school students and some from the secondary school choir all threw it as well so there were lots of red light, yellow light, green light and blue light flying above our heads. I watched as the audience catched the light sticks, some getting hit, some picking them up and others mouth wide open. The teachers that were sitting at the corner seats were thrown at as well. The comcert hall was emptied rather quickly. Some audience threw the sticks back as well and some light sticks broke allowing the sticky liquid inside it to leak out on some peoples hand. I saw an old man getting hit but he seems like neva mind lor. A few sticks flew back and hit the band conductor and some our the members. People continued throwing until we were asked to leave the stage. It was a total madness. You should have known what happen next, we were all screamed at. It is really sad to see a supposed to be a happy day to become like tad. Haix.....I gtg now, see ya soon....

Its Over!

2005-08-04T09:17:00.000+08:00

I had a good chat with a few people. Tad really lifted my sprit. Though one of them is smsing me but still not toking to me but i am stiu glad i am accepted. As wad of one of you say, there is always a good and bad in this situation. The bad, you all know, the good, my friendship bond with a few people. Yes, i shed and yes, i am disappointed and angry but yet again, i am alright now. There is stiu many people whom care, these angels brighten my day and give me hope and lift my spirits. But i am particularly disappointed by one person, i think some of you know but i wunt mention it here. I am sad, very sad, sad that i helped the person so much and this is wad i get. My tears have gone dry and my heart will remain numb towards him now. Wadeva it is, i am just happy to see the true colours of real people and get to know who is true and who is not. Just glad.....Haix.......

Bitches and scums!

2005-08-03T17:37:00.000+08:00

Sometimes people tends to look for trouble themselves. It is usually "interesting" to listen to wad they say but when they reach the limit, the victim will blow. I am a very tolerent person, i tolerate really well and i have tolerate him since term 2 of last year. He is a thorn in my ass, constantly asking for trouble from me. The more i dun bother, the more hell he would give me. Dun get why but it seems really wierd! I am glad i have friends who could give me good advice on how to overcome this type of crazy problems, people like AT, PL, GW, HT, LN, JY and more. Well, yes i have not give him a good time either wad wadeva the case is, i have reach my limit. I nearly blew up today and when that happen, things will go seriously wrong. I control, i controlled real hard, i tried my best to ignore but they just wouldnt leave me alone. He even go right beside me and whisper it into my ears. I just bite my teeth hard and controlled. LN, asked me to ignore and go away and would talk to miss hua later and i did so and was able to last thru the long 4 periods. Even in music class he can't stop calling me stupid names. So childish! Well, i guess people like him are dumb and have no mind of their own only knowing how to create names for people. So stupid. I dun evem care wad crap he call me la and the worst is two of my friends are involved and one of the names was created by him and the other telling him all the bad stuff about me. I didnt realized he was a spy all along. Byotch. One practice witchcraft and satanic things, the other a fat spy. Two backstabbers only to realised now. I regret not listening to andrew when wad he said was all right. Should not have even trusted them in the first place. I have my own rights in making whichever friends i like and why should you bother? And the fat spy, you are gonna suffer as much as the other byotch suffer, insult my friends rite, lets see wad they do to you. Witchcraft byotch, i dun believe in curses and stuff so it is not gonna work on me. I dun care, you can curse all you want and hopefully it will all return to you. I have nuthing left to say to you two anymore and i will have nuthing to do with you anymore. I have finally see the spectrum of colours of everyone and i have made up my mind wad to do, tads it and tads tad. I wunt be ever bothered again. I will neva forgive you for insulting my friends and my life. Get out byotches....

A week of craziness!

2005-07-30T16:26:00.000+08:00

This week was abit crazy! Common test is next week so everyone is studying like hell now...Choir is back on again but things happened in it lately. During one of our practices, a lunatic tried stranging andrew. Crazy guy, he look as if he has really gone nuts already. Tad was the first time where i saw Daniel Thong and Gen rong so angry before. Leong came back with an injured leg. No idea wad happen. The pratices were long and tiring now. His "short" prac ends at 5.30 la. So stup. That day when we were practicing for the some choral concert with a few primary school, he chased us off stage. So idiotic. He was like saying the luk luk was bad so he just " all the non-china people, get off stage now". It is like so obvious he is trying to outcast us. Heard that the lunatic is out of choir. Tad is great news but there is stiu one more guy, i am waiting to see him get kicked out. Leong started showing off his china choir and keep ssaying that we are silly and money throw at our faces but we dun one to take. That type of rejected feeling is very unbearable. He then said that the sec 1 improved tremedously and keep praising daniel thong. As if he very smart like tad la....wadeva....then one of the days, someone got angry with me and apparently threw a ball at me on purpose. I walk over in anger and pull his hair hard. Then i threw his adapter on the floor, so sorry ok. Didnt mean it, just tad i was really angry but from that incident i saw the true colours of someone, not that person which i pluck his hair, another person. He is a backstabbing scum. He is a slut who acts nicely in front of you but say your bad things behind your back. Some already know who is it but others, it is up to you to find out.

Just found out someone's scandalous secret today, haha.....so scandalous la, can send the wrong message to me and i sort of found out some things i shouldnt know. Haha....should i spread or not?

Crazy day? Maybe more of a mean day!

2005-07-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

Well, today has been a rather crazy day! Talk a little bit to that person even though this morning we were treating each other like shit. Realized that i forgive and forget to easy. Heart too soft i guess. But aniwae, we are ok now, maybe just normal fwens la, but when i saw wad he tagged on my tagboard, i was furious. Wad rubbish, you have no rights to gudge me ok. So don't....! Now we are equal so stop it. I have cleared my whole tagboard so it is clean now. Feel free to tag and ask me any questions. Today has been a really crazy day for Neopets as well. A group of people has planned to cause a major confusion and trouble for Neopets. Apparently, many HT items and expensive itmes got duplictaed and thrown into money tree and sent to many people and put in shops for 10k only. The period of 15 mins was crazy and you could see the amount of rare items thrown into the tree. It was really crazy. Now currently, neopets had so many topics about the dupe. Quite a few accounts were frozen and the shop wizard was closed to prevent people buying it from the shops. The items that i know that are being duped are:

Faerie Queen Doll

Faerie Slingshot

Ferocious Negg

Cool Negg

Royal Paint Brush

Baby Paint Brush

Grey Paint Brush

Secret laboratory Map pieces

Codestones

Faeries

Green Draik Egg

Sword of Skardsen

Ghostkersword

Ghostkershield

Ghostkerbomb

Thyoras Tear

Kauvaras Potion

and more.

Luckily neopets went in in time and block them or else or these items would drop tremendously in price. This is crazy. I saw a page full of 50 faerie slingshot in the money tree and 50 faerie queen doll as well. Later there is even slorg flake and cool negg. Haha...wad an exciting day but thank goodness everything is fine now.

Who cares?

2005-07-26T07:23:00.000+08:00

I dun give a fuck wad you say because it has no meaning to me. Call me wadeva you want la, aniwae you are renown to be a suk-up bastard to people serve as help to you like troy and others. You are fat and dumb and only know how to give people names, why dun you think of one for yourself. Sorry, i hate scums so i really cannot be bothered. Let me give you one last word of advice, you will end up with nothing if you keep sucking-up to people. Getting the wrong words and believing the wrong people will cause you more hell. People are just making use of your money, why do you think WYW keep talking to you for. So dun be stup la......good bye my pal, it is time you leave for good now. From now on, i will treat you like i dunno you, just like wad LN did and he perfectly has his reasons for doing so. Bye and good luck forever.

Wad a Freak...so hate him forever.

2005-07-25T18:54:00.000+08:00

There are people in this world out to cause trouble for you. They just couldnt mind their own business and has t speak their fucking mind. I dun get why some people are like that but guess that is a too bad for them. My mouth, i get to say whatever i want, i get to think about what i like, i get to feel what i feel and you can't stop me byotch. You hate me alot and i hate you even more. You think i am scared of you but sadly no my dear boy. Nobody in this world is afraid of you. I just didnt have the mood to quarrel as it is a good day today. Like what AT say, dun waste your breath over scums. There are many scums in this school, who cares about them. There are still many good people. I dun care what you said or what you called me, giving nicknames is so lame, childish and only for losers. I choose to ignore. As what i said, i live my life and a few rubbish word from an uncivilised bastard like you is not gonna change it. I dun mean to insult you fellow country, certain parts of you country is nice as well but certain citizens like you are just mother-fuckers, cheats and prostitutes. I have a long history and reasons for hating this. I dun hate for no reasons. So, i cannot be bothered. I wunt mention my reason but i think my good friends will know soon. I hate those girls that come to our school because of their horrid way of dressing that is why i called them prostitute, but it is kinda so not your business. So my dear boy, puh-lease, are you guilty about something? (mebbe something is wrong...mysterious).

And to this major scum, you know who you are, i sms you liao. I will neva forgive you and tok to you ever again. You uttered so much rubbish without even getting the whole situation right. Instead, you even lectured me. What rights do you have. I dun respect you? Are you my parents? You are just a big fat bitch with alot of money tads all. Bid deal. So, good bye scum. I wish you all the best in your live. Ps: I know what you did, it makes me sick, i am gonna tell. Prepare to get into trouble.

Finally an entry about my life.

2005-07-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

Well, finished all the personal entries for all my good friends. Now an entry for what has been going on with myself. This few weeks have been crazy, fun and great. I finally received the phone i wanted for a long long time. A stylish, glam phone 7270. Totally love it. Thanks Mum. Next, i finally got a full marks for my maths test. Not in ym whole sec school life. First time. So happy. Harry Potter craze is back on and people are rushing to get their books, lennart even finish reading his liao. I havent even get my yet, though i booked but cant be bothered to collect. No time la and somemore havent even finish the order of the phoenix. I am not so harry potter crazy so take my time to read and get a little bored after reading so who cares. But things changed abit today, not so good anymore. My chinese test was a horror, it is so difficult and this is the first time in my class where people cannot finish the paper. I finished though but i did not check at all. All i did was rush and rush. The compre was a total mess. It is so diff, i didnt know wad it was toking about and my answers are basically copying and pasting from the passage and i am sure gonna minus damn lots of marks there. Bryan said he had lost 20 marks already, probably not finishing the last 2 pages i guess. I am so screwed. Assembly today was one of the best, it was really funny, with all the diff teacher participating in the fashion show on stage. Lawrence and Daniel Ling dressed really skimpily, haha. Ester Ding was really hiao and Tian was really disgusting. Valarie wore the kabaya and could not even walk. Haha....so obvious that Tan Li Choo can only fit into that dress...haha...i laughed so loudly. Tomorrow still got maths class test and science test. I think i am gonna be so dead. As wad the sec3 says, Sebastian's paper is killer and is meant to kill everyone. I hope he would be kinder this time. Hope i could do well for this maths test as well, since i is trigo,i hope i will be fine. Heyx, gotta ciao, tution coming, so see ya...

For Lennart

2005-07-20T16:25:00.000+08:00

This entry is written for Lennart! You are a very funny person, you can change "mode" very easily. From super bitchy to bitchy to funny to caring to super nice to super mean to disastrous. But wadeva modes you are in, one thing will neva change is that the kind soul in you. We were really good friends in sec1 but not so strong in the first half year in sec2. I only realised the real you recently this term. After all that you have taught me and backed me up, i am really glad having a friend like you, Though you are super bitchy at times, you are still really nice in overall. I really enjoyed these few days when i sat beside you and you telling me all sorts of things about the teachers, haha...you are great. Just be the real nice you lennart because that is a much more suitable character for you....

For Andrew

2005-07-20T16:19:00.000+08:00

This entry is written for andrew. Your cheerful face make me sound even when i am so despair, i still laugh when i see you. You are a very crazy hilarious person, ever since i met you, i have become rather crazy like you. I feel really warm being with you and talking to you. You are a very friendly nice guy who supports his friend well. I only got to know you better when you slap jing jie that day because of me. I felt really touched when you shouted at him asking him to apologise to me, i felt this strong barrier protecting me and backing me up. Thanks! But, once again, like the same in the entry for philip, i yet to know you better. You and philip are really close friends and it is difficult for me to fit in in such a short time so lets let our friendship progress, step by step till one day, i could fit in perfectly. You are a special friend, i have made. One that i will neva forget, your sweet voice still play in my mind even when you are not beside me and your funny laugh is still there. Haha, Rock on Andrew...

For Philip

2005-07-20T16:12:00.000+08:00

This entry is written for Philip. I used to hate you alot in sec1 but only got to know the kind-hearted you in sec2. You are a very nice chap, a person who keeps really soundly but actually knows alot. I am really happy to have you and andrew such woderful friends but the thing is, i feel very left out whenever im with you two. It is tad, you two are really close and always whispering to each other and i feel lonely and invisible. Probably the reason why you two are so close is because you are together since primary school and i am just a new friend tad you've made in secondary school. Let time do its job. Probably after a year or so, we would be great friends and you and andrew will accept me more. I dun blame you fot this because i experienced it before, lets accept each other step by step and let our friendship progress slowly till one day i could perfectly fit in with you two....ok? For this few months, you have been a wonderful friend, talking to me and stuff, i am just really happy to have you as a good friend.

For Zheng Kai

2005-07-18T17:49:00.000+08:00

This entry is for Zheng Kai. Your friendship-span with me is relatively short but our friendship is strong and hard. I regard you as my god-bro because i we share the same similarities and because of your brotherly protection. You were always there for me whether i am sad or not. You are also there when i needed advice from any older people. You were like a older brother, shelthering me and teaching me to be more tactful. I respected you, even if i dun show it out to you but i hope you know, i respected you alot. I know how you are feeling after what you told me and i must say i am so touched by wad you have said. Dun worry ok, i know GW and KC will soon know as well and i hope they will too be touched. GW is a very understanding person, he will know if you are sincere enough so i support you. Tell them wad you have just told me and things might change. This is the last year i am with guo wei, kenny and you already, even after this year, i will remember you forever and will always respect the 3 of you as my rightful seniors, my best friends and the people who i will trust forever. I will support you in wadeva you do, so jia you ba...

For Kenny

2005-07-18T17:35:00.000+08:00

Ok, this entry is abit late, since you are already in china. This entry is specially written for you, Kenny. You are considered the only person tad i trust the most. Yes, i trust you more than i trust anybody. You are so far the only person i havent quarrelled with in the whole frost and i am so glad for tad. I really hope we will remain as very good friends forever. I will always remember the good old days we share in Prague and the horrid smell of your socks and how we laughed at it, how we ate our instant noodle at midnight using the stupid toilet water. You are like an angel guilding me out of the darkness and into the bright sunlight, helping me in everything, in terms of studies and freindship and many others. Your advice is always good and useful and i take it well. Haha....i will always remember you, Kenny, no matter where you are on this planet or whether you hate (hope it wunt happen) or like me, I will still be proud to regard you as my senior, my guiding angel and my very good friend.

For guo wei?

2005-07-14T21:11:00.000+08:00

Ok, this entry is only meant for 1 particular person and to all the others besides tad person, this entry is not important! I was really surprised. It was just a normal night, nothing unusual, but your conversation caught me in the eye. I am really very surprised tad you are willing to give me a chance. I am really thankful! So, this entry is specially written for you...

You were my good friend and i do not doubt that. In fact the whole frost family is my good friend. We share the sme interest, we took care for each other in Prague. I was really happy when i first knew you, You were like an idol to me and i greatly respected you. When i need help, you would do your best to help me. I am so thankful to be your friend. I remember the times when we chat on the fone and when you send me those nice messages. You were always there when i need you, whther i was down or up. You supported me thru thick and thin and you gave me lots of hopes. But then, till that fateful day when sumthing when terribly wrong. When the first time i saw you so sad, i too was disappointed. Disappointed in myself. Yes, i am wrong, i really was. I shoulnt have done all that (will not mention, you should noe)! I stiu rememebr that month, where i had sleepless night thinking of you and our friendship, wishing upon the star and hoping tad you would forgive me. I kept quiet for a long period of time then when you finally spoke to me, i am so glad. Though the first word was get lost and go away and dun touch me, stiu you are toking to me. That night, i talked to kenny and told him how happy i was when you finally said sumthing to me. After that, you spoke a little more by talking to me and even said a goodbye. I am really glad, really really glad. Now, you said you are giving me one last chance to prove myself, i will try my very best but i want you to know tad even if i will to fail, i hope you will remember the friendship that we once shared and you will always be remembered dearly in my heart as a friend, a very good friend. I know this entry might look short and simple, but i hope you know how i really feel and how hard i tried winning your friendship back again so pls pls pls forgive me and let us have a fresh new start. Ok? Lets prmise each other that we would neva hurt each other again ok? I know you are having your chinese listening tmr right so, i wish you all the best and good luck! Hope you really do well!

I am losinh my mind!

2005-07-13T21:05:00.000+08:00

I have realized many things, things i should have seen long ago. I have found out who is the true people who really care and those who dun at all. You see, my world is crumbling on me...i am devastated by all this hurt and disappointment and everyday when i wake up, i go to school filled with regrets and sadness. Friendship, a really strong and powerful thing, it can break you down, destroy you or give you happiness for a lifetime. Yes, i admit, i have been broken down, i have shed a river of tears, i have tasted the bitterness of friendship BUT i also tasted the sweetness. I continue this later after writing wad happen to me today.

A very usual day but all spoilt by SMH! SMH is the same as LMH, i realised all these people with the MH initials are all really irritating creatures. Just wanna make it clear to all in the fucking class of 2-3! I am who i am, i live my life, i respect myself, my conscience is clear and wad you think of me or say about me is not going to make a diff in my life. I have the people who understand me to support me and i dun need any of your comments. SO if any of you son of a bitch have a problem, you can just say it out and i will make it clearer for you. You might think my friends are your so called gays or wadeva! This will not make a diff in my life or their life as long as we know who we are ourselves. We respect ourselves, we respect our mind and body unlike you people and SMH. You perverted freak who is really gay and goes around touching you know wad...you sick ass...wait till someone takes action then you really know wad is the true meaning of pain. Here, i wanna thank those who believe me and ignoring SMH at the same time. I only realised that like today or yesterday. Jonathan, thanks for your countless support to overcome this days of terror and believing in me and comforting me. TH, LN, BJ, JF, YT and all who greatly believe in me...especially Lennart who gave me really good advice and provide a listening ear. I am happy for who i am and i am glad i to realised tad this world does not only have me but many caring people whom i call as my real friends.Thanks.

Continue from just now, y sadness and disappointment is actually from my own class, i hate my class and you all should know tad. I have realised many things, i also learn many things. I realised who my real friends are and who is taking me for granted. So, here is the thing, Philip, yes i am disappointed in you but you are really a wonderful friend and i am really glad meeting you. What i wrote in the conversation is just to test you whether wad you really think of me. Well, i could say, yes we are friends, but we really got to know each other better so i guess we should and maintain this long lasting friendship. You shouldnt think tad we wuld break up in sec3 or 4 ok! So trust me and i will trust you more as well. Andrew, you are a great friend and i am thankful for having you, though some of your words had been hurting, i think we should really build this friendship well. My motive is to become like you and philip, to be as close to you as well as philip, to make the three of us neva be upart. ok! Lennart, though you always disturb me, i know the true you, lets be like sec1 ok, where we really are true friends ok! Kenny, Zkai and the rest of the frost, you are my greatest friend and i will neva forget you. Jonathan, i used to think, you hated me but you prove me wrong so you are actually one of my good friend though you are a little crazy in class sometimes. JunFeng, thanks for caring about me, though you are always getting angry wif me, i still respect you as a good friend.

Now, the ass. Jingjie, you backstabbing freak. Your eyes are only filled with money and your mind is also money, i tried talking to you but you still wunt listen. You supported SMH which anger me most. i dun care wad you think anymore because to me, you are just a loser, people only befriend you because of your richness. I dun care anymore, because wad you and frankenstein say today is really bitchy and hurtful. SUCK ON WITH YOUR LIFE....

The most hurtful day of this term!

2005-07-11T12:01:00.000+08:00

Humans are made for many things and sad to say hurt and sadness is sometimes the major problem in many lifes. Me included. Today could be said as the worst day this term. Though it is not really the worst day of this year but yea, today is the day i had a roller coaster ride of emotions. Day was going fine and i was actually quite happy about the things tad happen for example, i was able to finally do answer all sums confidently in my maths paper. But after my last period which was DNT, i heard some really hurtful things. I dunno wad happen really but these words just came so sudden it practically cause me to be just blown away. These words came from one of my best friends mouth but i am glad to know wad he said as it is truth and came from the opinion of others. I am so sick of living, i am sick of my life, i am sick of everything tad is going on around me. I am sick of being pushed around, i am sick of me told what to do, i am sick of me taken advantaged of, i am sick of being forced, i am sick of everybody! I am sick of all these gossips and i am sick of all this backstabbings. I am so sick of all these lies. I am so effingly sick of this world. I just so tired listening to the way people thinks about me and how they judge me. I am so hurt when people just blast all this rubbish at me when i dun even know them. Seriously, i dun even know them. Wadeva, you think of me, i am so not interested, i live my life so shut up and get out of it. I dunno wad the hell is wrong with this class of people, it seem like the whole class has a really wierd problem and all those people hates me. I dunno why they hate me because i offended nobody, all i did was to visit my best friend in their class everyday, is that wrong? I dunno wad you all think but all i noe is tad i wunt change of the sake of all this unknown people.

When he told me that, i was shocked, i didnt know what was really happening. You said they all hate me, ya i dun care but the part i am so disappointed about is that you supported them and you say he is actually a very nice guy making me sound like the ass-hole who is actually the major prob. I dunno even noe him and i dunn noe why he hates me, you say is the way i behave but so wad! Thats just me! I was utterly shock and i just wanted to cry. If you didnt realised i was controlling my tears throughout choir. I hope you do, because you patted my back to comfort me. I dun blame you for saying the truth, it is just that, i thought you were my best friend and i cannot believe you make me sound i am wrong when i totally did nothing. You say he is a nice guy, i dunno, but wad he commented about me makes him not so nice anymore. He says i am ahem, then looking in a diff perspective, you are actually good friends with a ahem. Dun you think that is really insulting. You said you wanted me to change, wad you want me to change into, You, him, poser, crazy guy, gothic, Ditsy bitch or wad??? do you noe, that many times, people in my class commented about you and i backed you up. I told them all they said is wrong and that you are a very nice guy who i totally trust! You are my really trusted friend but now, i am really very hurt. WN kept comforting me, but i guess, i really dunno what to say now. I noe you will hate me after reading this but i want you to noe tad you are always a friend that i will remember forever and i will neva step into your class again.

And the next one, though you are not involved but your words is the one that made me tear. He only told me the truth that is why i am just disappointed in him but as for you, i am filled with anger and hurt. My greatest mistake is knowing you. You lied to me conuntless times! I dunno why but i think you are abit weird nowadays. Many others agree tad...you started hating people like tze heng and XY all of a sudden, no explaination. The problem with you is that wadeva i say to you, you will guarantee tell someone, tad is why i trust AT a zillion times more than you. That should explain why i dun tell you many things. Like today, i just said i wunt hang out with you all very often already and straight away within seconds you tell it straight to AT, i was about to go and tell him myself but since you do me the favour. And the worst is tad, besides tad, instead of comforting me or saying good things, you said, hope you new friends are trustful and dun go and find all those posers ah. I cant believe you said that. I quickly walked away to a corner to control my tears and stared at the skies above me. WN came over and patted me telling me dun be sad and r u ok. Yet after that only AT came back to see me, you were happily enjoying wad you just said, laughing away at other things. I am hurt by you and i can say in this world, you have hurt me the greatest this time. It is really sad when your best friend hurt you just like tad, really really sad. After that, you still have the cheek to go ask AT wad is going on? Oh my goodness....im totally shocked.

After this i think all of you still things it is me that is just crazy over today or sumthing, well maybe i am, suit yourself on wad you think of me. But now, i promise myself that i will remain happy even if the sky would fall or the world would crumple. Despite saying all this, i will still always regard you two as my friends, because this friendship that we shared is one of the sweetest that i have ever had. Guess now, i am the Third fallen frost in the family....well...........haix....

Concert and stuffs

2005-07-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

Finally updating now, supposed to be yesterday night but was really tired. Came home from the stupid concert, i shall not go into details but that concert was the worst ever, even Leong left before it ends. It is so stupid, i think only the VJ part is nice, oh wadeva. Drank a few mouth full of my mum's beer, thought i could take it but no, i couldnt. I drank Vodka before, it went fine but this stupid beer is too strong, i felt so tipsy and weird, so i went to bed early. Drunk i guess. Woke up the next morning and had a spliting headache, must be from that stupid drink so rest prac the whole day, did some homework and watch the final episodes of desperate housewives. I am really sad that Rex died. Haix, and angry over the absurb ending. Anyway, i start this entry from yesterday concert first. I went to the concert with PL, RL and JF. We met at J8 and bought some food then went to school, we crossed the overhead bridge and went to the bus-stop. Oh goodness, and i just saw something, i really supposed not to see. I dun wanna say it because i scared the person scold me, ya but it was really scandalous. Yikes! Next, when i reached school, i met Aloy, who laughed at me and JF, dunno laughing about wad la. We were supposed to bring some sec1, but there were none in school so wadeva, just eat our dinner first. Met CL and took a bus there. Aloy came up the bus again so we talked continously toward Siglap. Aloy told us rather private thing, CL as well so i wunt say a word but it is kinda funny and unbelievable. The concert was a whoribble. It is so ....oh my god...dun wanna go into details. The only nice part was the VJ one. They were marvellous. Then it is wasting time again. I felt so stupid to go there. PL and i tok about lots of stuff during the concert, stuff i wunt mention again but i want to commend on PL. I think he is a great friend, i really really trust him but it is just that sometimes, he suck up to much. He suck up to like the sec4 and its really irritating talking to him then as he is very rude. I bared with it but i cannot tolerate anymore. So for god sake, pls stop it. Getting yikes. But the good thing, PL settles prob fast and effectively, told me some really disappointing things. I wunt say anymore, before i start another conflict so i wunt breathe a word. Leave everything as it is, i guess. After the concert, i went home and drank a mouth full of my moms beer. I though i could handle it but i couldnt, i tried Vodka before and it was alright but this beer was too strong so i was tipsy after that and fell into a deep sleep. Woke up the next day with a splitting headache and still giddy. I am tired now, feel sick and giddy, gonna ciao, see ya....zzzzzz....

Life is slightly better!

2005-07-07T21:36:00.000+08:00

Havent blog for quite a few days, been really busy! School has reopen not long and we have many projects and homework, especially science,which is kinda mad and a rush through project, (thanks aloysius, you were great). I say SO is crazy. Mad liao, so strict and so much work, my brain is gonna pop. Joshua also gave so much homework, haiyo, i need to breathe one leh. Think i robot ah! Siao. I am kinda starting to get use to this stressful life. Well, about my previous entry, i would really thank all you guys for showing so much concern, i receive lots of support, thanks guys. Oh, to a particular person, thanks for helping me out. You know who you are, thanks for keeping it from WYW and comforting me. You were the first person out of the whole lot, i was really shocked at first tad you read tad entry and ask me about it on msn. I thought you hated me alot, but guess i was wrong, so sorry! But, you are a really nice person, thanks for keeping this from him, and really sorry for misunderstanding you last time! Hee Hee! Anyway, life is turning out better for me, GW is showing a little change and i am so so so so so so glad. I always regarded him as a friend and i really hope he would still tok to me. Haix... something bad happen today, it is quite serious but i really dun wanna tok about it. I feel really.....! Maybe after some time la. I am really tired right now, gotta zzzzzzzzz......see ya soon.

Always Watch your back!

2005-07-04T00:00:00.000+08:00

Always watch your back because you might not know that the people who hurt you the most is your parents. This is a very private entry so i really hope the people who read this can strictly keep it to themselves. Thanks you!

The thing i want most in my life is happiness and love. I really dun care about wealth, reputation or anything that people want, all i want is to be happy, but even this basic things, you all cant even give me so you still call yourselves my parents. The amount of hatred i have is much more than the love i have for all you people. I know you are going to started lecturing me or scolding me if you even see this entry but sad to say, this is my blog, i dun care, i write wad i wanna write. I notice a major change in you all since the start of my secondary school life. The only two thing tad could have cause this change in menopause in you or problem with me but since you two are only in your fourties, i doubt the first choice so the problem is with me and i know very well what it is. Ever since, WX did so well for PSLE, you have treated me really differently, i know my results is like lower than him by quite alot and i congrats him for his job well done but still, the way you treat me has majorly change.You are always scolding me about my results when you do not know how hard i tried, maybe because i am just stupid that is why. You are no longer the supportive people that i once know, all you do all day long is scream at me, scold me, lecture me, blame me, accuse me or threaten me. Many times, i thought thru the nights how to forget all this but still this feeling will always be there. I used to think of living with you all forever, but now i just can't wait to have the ability to move out and live on my own. You always say i can walk out of this house anytime i want and dun come back, I would be really thankful if i could do so but sadly i dun have the ability. I find you all very self-centred, you only think about yourself, even if i were to die, i dun think you would even care. You love to blame me for many things as well, for example the scratches on your expensive floor, instead of helping to solve, you started saying it is all your fault, who ask you to be so stupid, and raise your voice at me. This world of mine is always in the midst of darkness, i just can't find the light, the light that will give me warmth. When i am not at fault, you would always make me sound like i am at fault and punish me. This house is worst than living in hell, i would really want to walk out of this place but i just can't because fate has put us together and i am your miserable son. As my parents, you dun understand me, not even a little bit, i only realised that tonight. You dun even know my characteristics My goals, dreams, feelings? You dun even noe when i am sad or when i am angry or even what subjects i am taking? You dun, all you care is whether i did well for my stupid exams. All these shit dosent make a difference to me, results is not the main thing in my life. Sometimes, when i tried telling you things but all i get is get out of my room so i just have to shut up and walk quietly into my own room, you dun get how tad feels. I envy my friend, i envy my friend for having such loving parents who would listen to them advice them and help them and not always say that is your business. People parents help them by doing the smallest thing like driving them to school and went i ask you to do that all i get is why you cant walk by yourself or you are very lazy. How is it like to be carrying a heavy school bag and walking to school early in the morning and when you reach school, you are all tired and sweaty before the day even start? Sometimes, when i am really very tired, i still have to walk there myself or else i would have to ask him to fetch me and get scolded. I dun understand why my life is becoming in such a state where everything to me is just numb now. If you hated me so much, why bring me into this world?cI have given up, i should have done that a long time ago, i should not even bother what you say or what you do anymore cause that is going to cause me more pain. All my tolerance has made a huge scar in my heart. Do whatever you want now cause i am treating you all as if you never exist in my life? I am just gonna live my life now with as much happiness as i can find and not be botthered by you all again. Now even if you scold me, beat me or do wadeva to me, it wunt make a diff because all this to me is numb.

My Love!

2005-06-29T20:39:00.000+08:00

I really really like you! You are my hopes, my dreams. I dream bout you every night and think about you everyday. My life is miserable without you. You are so stylish and posh, i wish i have you now. I really really want you, but sadly some people is keeping me away from you and now i have to make phone calls in this old piece of crap which is so spoilt. I hate it when they lie to me and make me wait for 1 month before telling me i couldnt have you.

Stupid people, pls give me my phone. My life depends on it, it is so unfair. She is also at fault but you did not take away something from her but you took something from me. Something really precious to me. I am starting to hate you, hate you alot. You lied, you promise me and now you are breaking it. It is so obvious you are bias, I dun noe why i had to be so nice in front of you when you still treat me like shit. And for tad stupid girl as well, i bet she is so happy tad i cannot get my beloved phone now, so i am also going to make you life hell. I wish you will be more like somebody who understands me more, who can talk to me and advice me instead of hurting me and taking things away from me. Youth day is coming soon, the phone was supposed to be coming then but now, i guess another month or year or how bout 10 years. Why are you like this? Life is always fair, i am sure you will get your just desert soon. I make sure that!

I give up!

2005-06-28T18:19:00.000+08:00

I give up! I give up trying anymore! I just let time decide our fate. I give up because the more i try, the more hurt i get so if i dun try, i wunt feel anything. It is all up to you now, wanna tok or dun tok, you decide. I am still your friend, is just tad whether you treat me as one. Suit yourself now! Kenny, you should know why i would rather go to the chma with zhengkai then them beacause it is youth day and i dun wanna spoil my mood by going there and have nobody to talk too. I hope you understand, I am still really glad that i still have friends like you whom i can totally trust in and will know that our friendship is not as fragile as his. I particularly want to thank Rayston in this entry for helping me burn the lost series somemore in 1 day. You are really nice, thanks alot. Aniwae, school has reopen and it is already getting busy. Lawrence gave quite alot of homework on the first day. History has turn into Geog with our new teacher Mrs Pang Sok Ching. She really slang alot but is quite inspirational as well. Science teacher has turn into Mr SO. Now, i really miss Mrs ZA. She is like so much better than him. Oh god...trust me, his lessons are crazy. I think the whole class hates him liao. Wadeva. I am still really busy so cant write any longer. Shall end here. See Ya!

Frail

2005-06-26T13:46:00.000+08:00

I am very disappointed in you. I feel frail and weak. I dunno who to turn to or who to trust in! I dunno wad am i gonna do. I need help but dunno who to look from. I cannot believe anyone anymore. Even the people closest to you will harm you, when you did nothing wrong. God, pls help me.

Siblings are big trouble makers so a word of advice to everyone, beware of them as you might just be the poor victim. I dun wanna say wad happen as it will just make me cry even more, it is a long story. But what you all did shall not be forgiven, i would remember it forever even till the day i die as nobody has ever done this to me. Despite all you did to me since i was a young boy, those were really my fault but this time it is not. I tried explaining why i slam those thing but you just wunt listen and instead did not care. I saw the evil grin on her face. She must felt really happy inside her, watching me suffer from all this pain. I will not forgive all of you, i will neva. This world is supposed to be fair, punishment is not supposed to be given to the eldest all the time. I hate you, i hate all of you. Sometimes, i just cannot wait till the day i am 21 and can live on my own in peace. Get out of my freaking life, it is for me to live it, not you. This world of my is not filled with love and laughter but instead hurt, pain and lies. I dunno wad am i supposed to do now and how to face other people with all those stuff around me, happy now rite. God pls advice me.

Last day of holiday!

2005-06-26T01:28:00.000+08:00

Sitting in the dark typing on my tablet! In fact now is already the last day of the school holidays, from tmr onwards, need to sleep by 10.30 liao! Sianz...wonder if i could wake up to go to school or not? Already finish all my school homework and studied a little maths. Rayston helped me alot today by sort of marking my papers i did on the cruise. Haiyo, so many mistakes...i feel so dumb. Rayston, you are great, thanks alot. I cannot stand the feeling of being in class with Chee Seng and the crazy ppl... choir practice becoming through and i am dead for not attending 2 prac due to going for holidays, mom also neva rite letters, better tell Kenny personally. Die, i havent learn circle of life, betta ask jia jun to teach me lol....haix...school is gonna suck! heard common test is on the first few weeks, betta study like mad liao, played too much already! Betta stop writing, so sleepy i think i would just drop dead onto the tablet...nite nite

Star Cruise Trip

2005-06-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

Oh wow finally back from sea on board the cruise ive been too for over 20 times, Superstar Virgo, Star Cruise! This trip was very different from all the other trips as it is 6days 4night cruise unlike the usual 3 days two nights cruise to no where! This time, we went on a special trip to Bangkok and Koh Samui! This ship only travel to these two places thrice a year so i should be counted lucky to get my booking confirm!

19 June

Went on board the cruise at around 12 plus in the afternoon, wasnt really excited as this trip felt like any other weekend cruise to nowhere! Had lunch at the meditteranean restaurant, which was a buffet together with a hell lot of people. The food was still considered not so bad. Then, we went to the upper decks to chat with my grandaunt and granduncle and waited for the cruise to start moving. We then went to the library to borrow golf clubs to play golf. This is my first time playing golf and i really enjoyed it very much. My granduncle and grandaunt are golf professionals in it so he was quite strict in teaching. For the first couple of times, i cannot even hit the ball so my granduncle taught me the correct position and weight transfering first. I felt very awkward at first but subsequently i felt better. We went back to the cabin later to take a bath and went for dinner later. Dinner was great, this time we ate at a better restaurant and the serve much better food. (shall not go into details.) Went for a show at the lido theathe later. I fell asleep at the show due to the energy spent on golf. Went for supper and then tuck into bed.

20 June

Woke up late at around 11 and went straight for lunch at the meditteranean restaurant. The name meditteranean is beacause they serve all sorts of food from different country and in buffet style. Was taking my food with my sister and my mother, went this stupid china man started mumbling to my mother how idiotic those people in front of me were. I look in front and realised that those people are all the elder people and they cant decide what to eat so they were like "why dont you take that one or maybe this one" in chinese. Wadeva, so just give them some time la but that effing china man start scolding in english as if he sounds so smart and professional. Asshole if you are so damn impatient and hungry, why dun you just shove your face into the bowl of salad in front of you and in that way, you can eat right away. The way he dresses gives me the creeps as well...oh my checkled blue cow-boy like shirt with some peeled leather belt and a disgusting blue pair of pants or is it jeans.....yucks....so after my lunch, we went for a swim in the swimming pool while the adults went to the gym. This cruise is very strict in age limit. I tried going into the gym but was chased out beacause i am underage. Must be 16, so 2 more years i guess. Was swimming in the adult pool with my sister at the same time watching out for the life guards as she is underage, must be 12. Luckily, did not suspect her. Later my parents, grandaunt and uncle joined us in the jacuzzi, but unfortunitely, my sister got chased out again due to the age. So stupid! Went back for a bath and went to the karaoke pub area. The place is really smoky and dark and many tone deaf people were singing. Yucks, my ear drums nearly exploded. My mother chose a few songs and ordered drinks. I had mocktail as alcohol drinks are only served to customers over 18. Surprisingly, my mother had a really nice sop voice, she is able to hold a high notes well and sang not badly. Later a crew approached her and asked her to join the compeitition, oh my....but luckily, on that day only 4 persons tok part. The singers that took part were moderate, the first one was a australian and she dance in a really haio way. She cracked many times while singing. My mother was next and she did it quite well. The third and indonesia lady who is unable to sing high at all and the third a young singaporean woman who was dancing in a really awful looking way. My mother got third i guess, probably she did not dance, the winners danced and the indonesian lady last. Wadeva it is la....

21 June

Woke up early this morning at around 6 as we had to go to Bangkok. So sleepy. Bangkok was a 2 hour drive away from the port so we had to sit in the shuttle bus for 2 hours. We arrived in central world shopping centre where y grandmother went to the market and the rest went to the textile centre with my mum. In order to get there, we had to sit in the river taxi boat thing in the dirty river. The price is only a few cents in singapore. To get into the boat is rather difficult as it is swaying all the time and you have to sort of hop into it. The thais did it really well, even the lady, they wear high heels , mini skirt or long skirt or still did it fast but as for us, dun even think about it. The water in the river stinks, it smells like sewage but too bad, thats the only way to get there in the shortest time. Taxis will get stuck in the major jam. We spent quite a while in the textile centre and took the river boat back to central world. Central world is huge. There are like so many shops in there lol....bigger than taka by a bit. We went to isetan and another departmental store called jams. Was wandering around when i could not find my mother so me and my dad ran aroung isetan looking, up till a long period of time i am dead tired so i just totally sat onto the floor and wait. Found them in the end and went to the billabong section. The stuff there is slightly cheaper so i bought a bag. My father said it look like rag cloth but i certainly love it. Went for dinner at a restaurant called coca. I think singapore have also but much more ex lolx...so the steamboat was good, especially the chilli sauce which was specially made by the chef. Went back on the cruise at 11.

22 June

This day is the Koh Samui trip. Never been to this island before so i was quite excited. The ship is unable to go near the shore so we must take the tender boats and life boats down. My grandmother had difficulties in walking so we have to take the local tender boats as the ships' ones has alot of steps. Waited for the lousy tender boat to come and board it together with a hell lot of china people and singaporean. Sailed for 30 minutes and arrived at the port but the weird thing is that the driver did not park the boat. He let the other boats in first. So all the people waited patiently. after like another 15 minutes, he allowed another boat to park, this time the people on the boat went furious. They broke into anger and started screaming at the driver to park the boat in right now. Some of the people were scolding the crew on board and asking for compensation from wasting their time. Others were screaming at the other boats that are approaching to eff off. After like another 30 minutes, the driver tried to park the boat. He approched the shore but is unable to park by the side of another boat. The tide is getting low so it is getting more and more difficult. People started getting frustrated and wanted to jump into the sea to swim over to shore as the water is very shallow but was stopped by the crew. They started screaming at the crews stationed on the jetty due to the very long wait. The driver on the other hand was really sweating like hell and trembling in fear. Suddenly, there was a loud bang sound and we realised that the boat got stuck in the sand. Now, worst. The driver used alot of force to push the boat backwards forcing it out of the sand and try his luck again. This time, it hit right by the side of the parked boat causing all the tires by the side to fly inwards and scratched the other boat quite badly. He forced the boat out again and try again and this time, there was a gap in between and the boat is finally stuck and is unable to move any more. So, we are stranded. The crews on the other boat pushed a platform through the window linking to our boat and make the passengers crawls through the window. People are really angry on their poor service and all requesting for the complain forms. The manager on the other boat was constantly apologising and asking us to calm down. M poor grandmother could not crawl so the crew had to carry her. Another 89 year old man had problems too so he was panting really heavily. The stupid platform on the other hand look really broken lol so was kinda scared crossing. What worst is that only 4 men are holding onto the railing, no ropes or anything. After that horrid experience, we went on the land tour. Visited the golden buddha, the waterfall, the two obsence grandfather grandmother rocks which were stones in the shape of the ehem of the man and ehem of the woman. Then went for a foot reflextology at the shopping area. I was rather nervous at the start cause this is my first time doing this. It was ticklish at first and i kept laughing but after a while, it is better. Haha...but overall the service is really good and you cant get massages this cheap in singapore. It is like $8 for 1 hour lol....good rite...aniwae, we went back onto the cruise after dinner at a coffeeshop selling thai food. The food was really spicy and great. Tuck into sleep at 12, after supper on the cruise.

23 June

Now, we are on our way back to Singapore. Realized that i have grown tan due to the terrible heat in Thailand. The AngMoh seem to love it, they are always lying around the pool, suntanning till their skin is red in colour, if i were to do the same, i would get high fever and heat stroke and the cruise will have to call a Helicopter to pick me up! Haha...Had lunch again at the same old usual restaurant and met the same idiotic impatient guy in the lift. People were like getting out of the lift and he kept asking my mom to press the close button. Like, she is already doing it dimwit, then his wife said in chinese, press already! So stupid. Did nothing much today, just went to the library to do some of Joshua's homework!

24 June

Back home at last. Wasnt excited about going home as school is reopening and getting stress again. But before we left the ship, we went to get our fortune and future read by this Tarot Card reading lady. Shall not go into detail as i dun wan rumors to start again but it was quite accurate bout some things she said. Haha....maybe somedays you guys should try, btw, it is not cheap.....! Left the cruise and went back home, rest and took a hot bath, then visited my cousin at night. So cute, seem like she has grown slightly bigger after a few days. Chat with ZhengKai at 12.30 till 2.20, tok bout lots of things in our life, past, present and future. Haha...thanks Zheng kai, sometimes toking to you really helps, thanks.

So there it is, one of the longest blog i written, take your time to read and prepare for the following term, dun i would really miss my june holidays again. Happy school holidays for the last time, can only say it after 10 long weeks. Haix

I suck at time management!

2005-06-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh! I need to finish a hell load of work in a short period of time and it is practically my fault. Damn, i did not know that i am going on a 1 week cruise next week or else i would have finish all my school homework on the second week of the school holiday! So happily playing and playing tad i totally didnt care bout my school homework! Wad worst is tad today when Ln and the guys came, they told me that there was more! I guess, it means no more tv and games for the next 3 days to complete my homework and the following nights are gonna be sleepless! Ln and the guys came today to do the chinese project but in the end, end up playing in the playground! So, i really have no more time to do the chinese project with them. If only we could put up another project meeting on the 25th which is the following saturday.Wadeva! I am totally addicted to desperate housewives now! It is really nice and gives you the temptation to watch the next episodes so it goes endlessly for a few days! Kenny, if you are reading this, pls pass me the episodes after 15. Thanks! Hey....gotta stop now so see ya soon!

Andrea's first birthday!

2005-06-13T15:28:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday baby Andrea. My little cousin celebrated her first birthday yesterday! Wad a grand party lol at a high class restaurant at Fullerton Hotel. The service is good and the food is marvellous. Her parents invited two tables of relative and i think the bill is over a thousand dollar. Wow! My cousins are all there, so we had a rather great time talking to each other. Her birthday was also celebrated with her grandfather and my other cousin Nicholas. So 3 birthday in one day. Not bad! The thing i wanna write about is some of my cousins and other relatives.My aunty aka Andrea's mum also invited my granduncle and their family to celebrate. My granduncle is young so his sons which are my uncle are of my age. One of them is 16 and the other is 13 The 16 one is brayan and the 13 one is Mervin. The thing about this too is that they are extremely uncivillized. They cannot even like sit still and behave themselves. They kept talking rubbish and doing idiotic things. Luckily our tables are inside this special room, not outside with the other customers or else, it would really be so embarressing. The younger one is still not so bad but the older one is mad. He ate like some wild boar and keeps talking alot of cork. He dip his fingers in water and start rubbing it against his glass cup giving out some stupid sharp sound as if there was a orchestra in the restaurant. The worst is when he ate, he keep saying like how to eat this or is this edible and start using his fork to slam it on his plate. oh my gosh...it is a pain to eat with them. The way they dresses is also very inpropper. They are wearing t-shirt and pants. Like hello!! They are the only two wearing t-shirt and those t-shirt are not even real. It is those type of old billabong or quiksilver ones where there are no nice pattern on it. Oh wadeva!My other cousin from malaysia is as bad. He is fatter than an elephant and eats like a pig. He gobbles his food and compete with people on who eats more. The people he competes with is far less slimmer than him so oh my god he ate alot.One of my aunty could be said as bad la...the waitress serve as some roast duck thing and she gave the whole plate to her son without even asking whether anybody else wants or not. haix.....after that, they cut the three birthday cake and Andrea's cake is of course the biggest. A huge 5kg cake with Piglet on it. Andrea loves Piglet. Haha....so thats about it. We went to DFS later to shop for a while. My aunty from malaysia wanted to go there. They went to the Perfume section and oh god...so many perfume. My cousins and i just when aound testing perfume while the adults shop for them. There were really nice ones and really disgusting ones. The Britney Spears Curious smell really bubblegummy. Nice smell and the Beyonce Tommy girl Top star also not bad. The men DKNY be Delicious was rather good as well. It has a really sweet apple fragrant. The woman one also not too bad. The beyond paradise woman by Estee Lauder was good but the men one is not so good. The Channel Allure Men is nice but abit too strong. The Bvlgari Aqua Pour Homme is my favourite but my mother said too young to buy. So stupid. Gucci Envy also quite nice. The worst is the prada one, it is so strong and smelly, yucks. Thats about all lol...gtg...do more homework...see ya!

Just blogging for fun la!

2005-06-08T16:53:00.000+08:00

Haix..just watch house of wax yesterday. One advice to all those who are gonna watch, it is so lame and stupid! It is like plain boring and sick! Tads all....i have the dvd, u one, i can lend you! Aniwae, Madagascar suck as much. It is like 1 and a 1/2 h and totally stupid! Whole cinema filled with little kids laughing and screaming away! Give me a break! Haix...little cousin Andrea's birthday this saturday, dunno wad to wear! Probably just wear my new jeans and a nice shirt lol! Excited! Wadeva, nuthing much to write so betta continue my maths lol...see ya

Could be said as one of the worst holiday!

2005-06-07T16:32:00.000+08:00

Woke up early in the morning...was so excited for my trip to Kuantan in malaysia! It is said to have beautiful beaches and nice resorts! It was Friday and we set off at 7am! We took the first crossway, the one at woodlands and went to Johor first. Had breakfast in a malay restaurant, just plain nasi lemak la, then continued the journey to Kuantan! Stop by at another restaurant in a small town called Pahang! Beside the restaurant was a sort of horrible shop! A poster on the wall wrote that the shop was like a sexloss massage centre where these women from thailand, changloon massage the you-know-what at the you-know-where! Tad is effing dirty and disgusting...yucks! The place is infested with houseflies, should thank god i did not get food poisoning! Then to Kuantan! Looks just like a normal town with a very ugly skyline, nothing much, just an ordinary town in malyasia, nope....nuthing special! Supposed to check into a hotel first but we were brought to this ulu place inside the jungle beside the sea! Wad beach resort and white sand blue water, guess wad, my dream beach resort has turn into a nightmare, a black beach with oil stain in the water, cows roaming at the edge of the sea, dead crabs and jellyfish washed ashore, the whole beach was filled with crabs and the sand is filled with rubbish. The foam from the sea water is sticky and the worst is the so called 5stars hotel i dreamed off! The hotel is not even a hotel, it is sort of a chalet like thing which contain attap house. There isnt any swimming pool and the whole place stink of a smoke smell. the owner of this place was burning some shrub so that the place wunt have mosquito. We open the door into our room and too my horror, the place is all made of wood with a cobweb filled air-con and a bed with dust! The toilet has a weathered door with no bathing area. All there is, is a toilet bowl, a sink and a huge pail with a tap above it! Thank god they have a water heater i thot! I on the tap and the water heater but to my suprise, the water is icy cold! Shit! The water heater is worn out! It is only left there for show! We asked the owner but he said last time the water was so hot that it scalded someone! Like the person is so dimwited to get himself burn! So, damn it, bathe with cold water! The worst part is that the lace dosent even have any shower and curtain so when we bathe, we are supposed to use a smaller scoop to scoop out water fromt he huge pain and splash on our body! I didnt know bathing cant be so tiring even the camps we have at school has showers, at the same time, the floor is so slippery and water that we splash will wet the toilet bowl, the wall and anything in the toilet! So bathing is once in my lifetime so difficult and tedious! The women are worst they dun have a shower so it is so difficult to wash their hair so for my sister and the rest, they either did not wash their hair there or use the spray that people use to spray their butt to wash their hair! The toilet is invested with mosquito that my aunty had to use the mosquito spray to spray the whole damn room! I was on the verge of tears, why must i spend my beloved holiday in this unfit for human place! Not only i was shock, but my whole family were as well! I could hear my cousin and sister scream as they when into the toilet and lots of smacking as the mosquito would fly everywhere! My aunty's chalet has a hornets nest right on the roof and the bees flew everywhere, thank og the owner change all our rooms! The new rooms were just as terrible! Mosquitos and bugs and broken roofs, broken door knobs and handles, rubbish place! Even the worst ever hotel 81 is better! My mother called my aunty living in kuala lumpur whether we could go stay in her beautiful semi-detached house and she said sure! Of course i would just leave for sure but yet again, we already paid for the rooms so dunno wad to do! When night came, there were many crabs around, i nearly stepped onto one of them, yucks! And when i climb ont the bed to sleep, i had to keep all entry to my body properly shut before any dust mite or bed bugs climb in. I used a towel to wrap my pillow in case any bad bugs climb out of the pillow! The nxt morning, the first thing i did was to wash my hair! Thank god no bed bugs. Then we were brought to the beach. Yup, it is worst then our beach in changi and sentosa. Say very nice, like real la! After that, we went straight to the kuala lumpur! The only place in malaysia fit for visiting! We reached there at night and went for dinner, then we went to petaling street to buy some dvd and other stuff, cool place man! Then the next day we went to my granduncle restaurant at subang jaya to try his world class nasi lemak and laksa! The shop is really nice, situated at a shoppping centre and serve marvellous food! Great place! After that, we went to mid valley shopping mall to do some shopping, of course i enjoyed that, it is my favourite thing to do! Went to my favourite store in malaysia, Diesel! So lucky me. On that day, there was a storewide sale up to 50% discount available! Shiok! Even the lastest goods have a 20% discount! The jeans i wanted to buy was 99RM but after discount 29RM plus la! So i bought two and a lastest pullover! So cheap, jeans like only $12 here lol....so more quality is ten times better than the local stores! Wanted to buy Levis but too small size, the smallest size also cannot fit me one la! Enjoyed myself alot in Mid valley! Actually, i wanted to go to KLCC but the things there are really very ex.....all the branded like gucci, salvatore ferragamo....cannot buy so might as well not waste time! The next day was to return home liao so drove all the way back here! Miss choir so Philip and Andrew pls update me! Gotta go finish homework now, see ya!

Born To Make You Happy Lyrics!

2005-06-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

This song is delicated to this particular someone who is really a true friend! Wad we shared in Prague will neva be forgotten and our friendship will always be remembered in my heart! Pls forgive me for wadeva i have done, i am really sorry! My life is utterly miserable without you, lets give ourselves one more chance...pls! This song is meant for you, though i am unable to put up the music, i hope the lyrics will tell you wad i feel! (Pls look it in terms of friendship, not love!)

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BORN TO MAKE YOU HAPPY

I'm sitting here alone up in my room

And thinking about the times that we've been through (oh my love)

I'm looking at a picture in my hand

Trying my best to understand

I really want to know what we did wrong

With a love that felt so strong

If only you were here tonight

I know that we could make it right

[CHORUS:]

I don't know how to live without your love

I was born to make you happy'

Cause you're the only one within my heart

I was born to make you happy

Always and forever you and me

That's the way our life should be

I don't know how to live without your love

I was born to make you happy

I know I've been a fool since you've been gone

I'd better give it up and carry on (oh my love)

Cause living in a dream of you and me

Is not the way my life should be

I don't want to cry a tear for you

So forgive me if I do

If only you were here tonight

I know that we could make it right

[Repeat CHORUS]

I'd do anything,

I'd give you my world

I'd wait forever, to be your girl

Just call out my name, and I will be there

Just to show you how much I care

[Repeat CHORUS]

The world is full of bitches!

2005-06-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

Haix....i was really happy two days ago! The sec 4s had their O level and heard they said it was really easy! Good for them! The thing i am so happy about is that someone finally talked to me again! Even though you said in your blog that you talked to me because you did not want to spoil the mood of the others but still thanks! I am really grateful to see you say something again and not ignore me! The good thing is tad you still called me the next day asking me whether i wanna go watch a movie with you and the other person! Sorry i couldnt, had tuition homework to complete! I am just glad that you answered my questions on the phone and did not slam down while i was talking! Thanks but for that few seconds i thot you would do tad, i am really really grateful! Thanks alot! Oh and i wanna ask you if i can follow you to the bbq tmr and how are all of you all going? Pls reply ! Actually my entry today is about my effing sister! She is a god-damn bloody whore! She lie her way through making my parents believe her and only said the part about me and not about herself! (not going into details) Sometimes, i really cannot believe tad i must be stuck in this miserable world with this family of shit people! Sometimes i wish they would understand me better and would listen to me! Sometimes i really wish they would really be more fair and not always blame me for everything! Sometimes i am not at wrong but they make me feel i am wrong! Sometimes i try my best to understand but they still wouldnt accept me! Sometimes, i give up, i really give up! I give up on you all, i give up on this world, i give up all my hopes but i will not give up on my friends! They are the only people who really understand how i feel, wad i am going thru! Though some of you all may hate me and hold grudges on me and you noe, in all i still remember you as the people who once care, corcerned and showered protection over me! You all the people who encourage me, believe me and support me! Thanks to you, i am able to live on, thanks to you, i remain strong and still thanks to wad you taught me, i remain numb after all this happenings! So i wished that those who still dosent want to talk to me, pls accept me cause without you, i am really lost, i am really hopeless and i am really hurt! You are the only people who can relieve me from this hurt pain sorrow so pls, continue that! Thanks to all you all have done for me, it will always be remembered in my heart!

My prerogative lyrics

2005-05-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

MY PREROGATIVE

[Spoken:]

People can take everything away from you

But they can never take away your truth

But the question is..Can you handle mine?

They say I'm crazy

I really don't care

That's my prerogative

They say I'm nasty

But I don't give a damn

Getting boys is how I live

Some ask me questions

Why am I so real?

But they don't understand me

I really don't know the deal about my sister

Trying hard to make it right

Not long ago

Before I won this fight

[Chorus:]

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me

Why don't they just let me live?

I don't need permission, make my own decisions

That's my prerogativethat's my prerogative (it's my prerogative)

It's the way that I wanna live (it's my prerogative)

You can’t tell me what to do

Don't get me wrong

I'm really not souped

Ego trips is not my thing

All these strange relationships really gets me down

I see nothing wrong in spreading myself around

[Chorus:]

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me

Why don't they just let me live?

I don't need permission, make my own decisions

That's my prerogative

That’s my prerogative

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me

Why don't they just let me live?

I don't need permission, make my own decisions

That's my prerogative that's my prerogative

It's the way that I wanna live (it's my prerogative)

You cant tell me what to do

Why can't I live my life

Without all of the things that people say oh oh

[Chorus:]

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me

Why don't they just let me live?

I don't need permission, make my own decisions

That's my prerogative (they say I’m crazy)

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me

Why don't they just let me live? (they say I’m nasty)

I don't need permission, make my own decisions

That's my prerogative(it's my prerogative)

Cannot stand CHINA FREAK for another sec

2005-05-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

I am stuck in the middle of a very idiotic and shit-like world! Why cant i be born elsewhere and dun need to meet such people??Haix...Life is so unfair! Zalinah favourite phrase is "Life is always fair!" Dumb Byotch! I wish i was born in America where life is always so free and easy going! Life here is so tense and people are giving me too much stress! Just like the yesterday, Gorrilla return us our report books....so expected the overall to be not so well...1st term this year SUCK....so pull down lol...so obviously the WANG CHINA BITCH did better then me by a tiny winy bit....like wadeva...byotch....so GYT went to ask him wad is his result and position and later came to tell me and that bitch straight away started yelling behind my back calling me wad Da Er Chi....aks big ear phones....wadeva geek like make fun of my name all you want, wad bout yours....wang yi wei....more like i my mother is a prostitude and i am a useless retarted china bastard! So in correction your name should be Chi-Na Bargarol....china bastard! I dun care whether you get 18 in class or 35th in class....you are stiu as lame, as smelly as disgusting low-down, cheap as ever! Why dun you go and be a gigallo and sell your body to get more money so you can show oof even more! I dun care whether your result is better than mine or you are better than me in Neopets....That dosent really matter in my life....i shouldnt get angry over bitch like you as you are really just wasting my breath, so fuck-off and go back to china....or maybe china wunt even want you! Oh and playing blind mice with my best friends dosent mean we are gay and love touching each other, dun be ridiculous? If it is like tad, then lots of people will be touching each other....oh and your mum is a good example, just a pros selling her body evrynite,learn from her la! Freak, at least Lennart did much better than you byotch! Haix....supposed to change my phone but must wait another month or else must pay and extra of 100 bucks...! Haix...so only can get it after june holidays lol! Wadeva la! Hey wanna quote a song for WYW on top....

Cat high full of scandalous people??

2005-05-27T08:56:00.001+08:00

Oh my......u should really see wad people in this school do.....all boys but really shameless and not afraid of doing anything improper in public. I saw 2 sec 1 boys in the canteen that day. One of them is the president of ZK's fan club he was leaning on another boy and holding him on the railling his lips were kissing his neck and whispering something. The other boy just lean back and look like he is enjoying it. Yucks! Yesterday at the NKF medical fund charity amazing challenge, we were at HDB hub, Toa Payoh, trying to complete our second station. JF was asking for donation, my other friends were there and we were sort of comparing the amount of money we collected. JY from the other group said to us" How you get so much one, you all sell your bodies ah?" Sorry hoh, we not so CHEAP! Yucks...you tink we pros or gig????Ewwww.....Then he ask JF, "i give you 5bucks one?" Obviously JF said ok! then he replied" Then you must have sex with me!!!" Oh my, JF immediately slapped him on the arm.....good for him....!So shameless, stiu there to ask this type of question! Horrible! Last year, there also been a case where two sec4 boys had oral.....eewww...i not sure whether it is true but many people were tokin bout it......Cat High, full of this type of things...yucks.....Today is the last day of skul...really worried, th bloddy Wong Chee Seng is giving out the report book and he is thinking of some ridiculous method...he splits the class position into 3 parts and return the report books in tad way....first 1/3, second 1/3 and then the last 1/3.... as you noe my result suxs this 2 terms so i guess later i very bai sei la......haix.....where should i hide my face later.....?????

Blog causing more trouble!!!

2005-05-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

Realise people's blog disappear.....ZK, LN, PL.....and counting....In fact, i should agree wif them blog is nuthing but trouble! It is a place where we shed our tears, we cry our heart out but yet again, things we write might cause hurt to others. I am guilty for sumthing i have done causing a misunderstanding between e and my good friend. You know who you are, i am really sorry and really grateful for you deleting your blog and create a private diary where you really can pin down all your deepest thought. You show it to me, but not the info only the titles but that already help. You are considerate enuf to write out all the things you want to say on a private diary so i cannot read it and get angry wif you! Thanks! I am really grateful for that as you did not want anybody to get hurt. Not just me, everybody that you are writing about. In this case, no misunderstanding will happen! Thanks! Yet again, i am very guilty over some things i wrote that might harm our friendship, i am really sorry.( maybe i should create a private diary like you)! I really hope we could be friends again! Blogging seem nothing but trouble! Mrs Tay deleted her blog because of that too....many others as well! If i can find a way to put password on my blog, that be good! I dun feel like participating in the "amazing race" tmr. Really? As in Sianz....haix....running around whole of Singapore, is there sumthing betta to do! Haix....Joshua cancel tution today so i get to hang out wif my best friends Andrew and Philip! Talk alot about Prague and how we get to know each other and the whole Frost Family! Went to the park to play again and swung round and round on the merry-go-round! Then went to my house and have a water war....hahaha..... so fun! Sorry for making you all wet ah! Well, ending off....my favourite television programme starting liao...betta watch! (Btw, it is not american idol) Haha....see ya...

Happy Holidays!!!

2005-05-24T10:34:00.000+08:00

Finally, the time i am waiting for, June Holidays! No more waking up early in the morn, No more school homework, No more boring classes, No more Wong Chee Seng, No more irritating people in class, No more exams just REST! Phew....time really flies, its like 1/2 year so soon and in the blink of an eye, christmas again! Wow! I really cannot wait for these 4days to pass! Aniwae, these 4days are just plain dumb....teachers not doing anything, homework long gone and websites plus messenger open for us again! Actually this entry is to clear up all my "debts" this term and oso some ridiculous words some teacher said this term! Firstly, i want to apologise to someone! I am sorry for laughing so loudly at you tad day and extremly sorry for poking your stomach and causing you to fart so loudly! I know it is embaressing, really sorry! Next, i wanna apologise to all those people who were once angry with me....i dunno why you all are angry but wadeva....especially LN...you are angry with me because of (confidential)! Can't we be like last year, lets get it over and off with....lets start afresh can? Lets forgive and forget and continue being good friends like we once were and helping each other out of the bloody you-noe-who ppl! Can? So, term gonna end and i have a farewell to make! Goodbye Mr Fernandez. I will really miss your fun and enjoying History lesson! Though my history result is not so appealling, but really...i love your lesson alot! You are a really great teacher and i pray that you would teach me again, someday, somehow! Goodbye! Ok, then this entry is also more abit on the amazing race thingie, i am looking forward to.... I was really excited about this thing as number 1, i get to participate in such a fun event, number 2, i dun have to attend class, number 3, i get to play with my friends but yet again, bad things might happen! JJ told me in the face saying i am out of the group! Obviously, i was shock...like i am so looking forward to it, what you want me to do, suddenly out of it! JJ said LN did not want me in the group so i went to talk to him. He allowed in the end, maybe due to some misunderstanding...so i am happy and hopeful and went home! At 3pm. Philip called asking whether he and andrew could come to my house for study group! Yup...i am busy but i allowed. We studied for a while and then andrew called Zheng kai, he came too and we decided to go to the playground to chill....we started to play a game called "blind mice"! Hasnt played the game for a long time so skills not so good! Climbing on the stairs and hanging on the slide was really fun! Zheng kai is really good lor....being a sec4...stiu so good at all these childhood games....hahhaha...! At 5.30 they all left so went home and rest! Today, came to school feeling really sianz...i hate wednesday, have tuition somemore boring assembly and lame chinese drawing lesson....oh bother...PE today was great! That is the only PE lesson i enjoyed as i like floorball so had alot of fun screamming and laughing at the way jingjie reacts when the ball gets too near....later i was telling jingjie about how fun the game was and he was laughing at me....haix....always laughing at me! Then jingjie went for the stup chinese drawing lesson and told everyone that i went to play blind mice at the playground and after that went to m house with my friends and start touching each other! I can't believe he said that its like....really horrible...i am extremely shocked that jingjie could do such a thing. So i went over and pull his hair real hard.....ok i am wrong to so i am sorry ok....haix....then whenever i walk pass jingjie, he would make some vomitting sound....i was really fed-up wif him so when i return to class i scream at him real loudly. I will vomit first BYATCH! He was silent and me too, i went back to my seat and LN walked pass saying wad happen, i said to him "Why are you always sarboing me behind my back?" He was silent too and walked to jingjie. Feeling guilty of screamming, i went over to apologise to jing jie and had a good talk with LN so i hope everything is ok now.....oh bother....haix.....

Stress over exams

2005-05-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

Haix....i am sooo stress....i am stress before exams, i am stress after exams. I am so forever stress! My results, can say improve quite abit but stiu has alot of weak areas! Ya, you can laugh out loud....wadeva...dun give a fuck! Working harder for next term! Pls lor...these 2 terms are only 30% added together. I stiu have a 70% waiting to grab and i'll make sure i grab it tight! Holiday is just around the corner, thank god at least can sleep abit more from all these stressful school days! Wadeva la! So...ya...tads good! Oh and i am warning that effing "framer" to stop framing people, bloody hell, causing more misunderstanding, when i find out who you are, you are really gonna sufer a whorrible death, for tad, i swear! haix...my overall result percentage totally suck! Hate it soooo much.....going hard on Holidays liao....Joshua is gonna pressure till the end! AT so smart lor....75% just A1...triple science....really very smart! I wish i was just 1/2 as smart as him but at least i stiu have him as a friend to be proud off and someone to back me up when ppl laugh at me! Ya Jingjie, you can laugh out loud and tell the world how much i suck at ,maths...how stupid i am ....i can't believe as a friend, you are like tad....haix....(shake head)... China Byatch too secretly cursing me behind my back...wadeva....lets wait till the end of the year then we talk.....pray hard that i dun get into the same class as him...or my life wuld really be OVER! (yawn) i am sleepy...(doze) Good nite! Need to wake up early to do more work......see ya

Haix...

2005-05-19T16:50:00.000+08:00

Ok....it has seem to be like i have stop writing alot...use to update practically evryday but now maybe twice a week....dun worry i will continue to update asap! Firstly for this entry i wuld like to thank a few people!

1. My cousin Cheryl. Thanks alot for encouraging me and not laughing at me like some ppl do, dun worry i will strive hard. Your words are really heart-warming.

2.My best friend Philip. Thanks philip for believing in me and constantly supporting me and giving me hope. Thanks alot.

3.My best friend Andrew. Thanks Drew for pulling me out of my sadness and believing that i can do it. What you said to me today in the library really helps alot.Thanks!

Haix...i have been crying for the few days since i receive my Maths result! I was terribly shock and remain depressed till today! I worked really hard and really tried my best! But this is the final product i get, it is really disappointing to see myself fail before my eyes but i am sure there is a reason for this. Well, i found my problem with the help of what my cousin wrote on the tag-board! The prob is that my studying method for maths is not right so the solution is to find a right method and be more careful la. Lost like 10.5 marks due to carelessness! I can say to sadness is disappearing but anger is forming! But of my blog today is to vent my anger on some ridiculously lame people ive met. Supposed to blog yesterday but was really ill so blog today! This blog is about this very idiotic show-off bastard in class. Many of you will know him. Shall not mention names so just call him W.W is someone i call as CHI-NA PRODUCT. I hate him ever since last year and the worst part is, he stinks, as in the soap he uses has problem. Wadeva! W is a major player of neopets and recently his account got frozen because of scamming. That didnt bother me much.He started a new account and earned lots of np fast. But on that day, i overheard him talking to another guy, talking bout trying to spam somebody else's account and guess wad, my name was mention. Immediately, i changed the password and everything seem alright. But that is not why i am so angry with him. Just right before we were dismissed, he walked pass me and JF and said" JF, you so jian one, every subject all better than me." JF did not reply but i did. I said Thats because he is smarter than you. Then he replied" Then i am smarter than you". This hit me right in the face and the feeling of embarressment and failure started overcome me. These words started haunting me ofr the rest of the day and revenge is the word on my mind. Let me tell you byatch, you might beat me this term, but that dosent mean you are gonna beat me forever. So wad, even though you are just a little better than me in your studies. In many eyes, you are stiu a loser, a freak that come from CHINA, a disgrace to the republic of china. So wad even if you have that tiny winy bit of IQ. Your EQ totally sucks, thinking of scams and cheats, showing off....wad else can't you do. Worst stiu, look at you, do you even have friends, you have is it, wad kind of friends... People are just being nice to you la...Do you hav friends that are loyal, supportive and trustworthy or just people whom i refer as gaming partner that only ask you to enjoy a game of CZ or Dota together? Let me tell you, you dun but i do. AT and PL is a good example. This is only 2 tad i listed, there are many more. You may refer my friends as gays but wrong, they are not. They are just people that are slightly more emotional, not gay or sissy, perfectly normal. Your friends do not even know you well enuf. I have no rights to tell you off, i am not ur parents or elder but i should say look at yourself before commenting about people. This 10mins of fame is not gonna help because in overall, a thousand more people are better than you. Watch you back and not criticise! That is one reason why your second neopets account got hacked. I dunno who is the hacker but a high percentage rate of it is because the hacker dosent like you. You may think it is me or JF, but nope i am absent yesterday and sorry JF is not tad sort of low-down people. Suck on that!

Today, ive met another ridiculous crazy lady. The school libarian. I was using my tablet in the library when she came over and said to me" Arent your tablet supposed to be fully charge when you come to school." I replied" ya". Then why are you all charging int he library. I said" i'm not". Then she pointed at the plug behind me which JF was charging. I said" it is him who is charging". Then she replied" Better not let me see you all charging again, later the school come and question me why the electricity bill is so high again." LIKE TOTAL BITCH. Charging for a while will cause the bill to be high?? Hello, and it is not me that is charging, why are you lecturing me for, asking for slap is it. Pls la, bored being a libarian then quit la, go and sell fruits or be prostitude like byatch. Pls lor, now is the last period of the day, even if our tablet is fully charged when we come to school, wunt the battery be low at the end of the day. Use your brains abit la. Anyhow scold people like that, think you libarian big shot ah. FUGLY SLUT, go around scolding anybody you like. Luckily, i respected you, or else i will scream right at your face and slap the library door and stomp out. Ridiculous, totally ridiculous. Haix, dun bother some menopausing woman la, only spoil people day. Ending off here liao....Tuition at 6....dunno how to face Joshua la, sure get scolding one, wish me luck. SEE YA

Why is this happening......

2005-05-16T11:04:00.000+08:00

Here i am sitting in the middle of the classroom...people around screaming and shouting away but me all quiet, disappointed heartbroken! I tried...i really tried....i tried my very very best....i could say i worked but things dun go my way...it really dosent...LT returned the maths paper to us....when my name was called, i walked nervously to the front, and took a peek at the results.....i failed....once again i failed....i dunno how many times i need to fail...really how many times before i could pass again.....i have given up hope....given up all hopes in Maths! Despite trying real hard, i stiu fail! Ive really push myself, tried my best but i stiu get this "beautiful" results....i am really disppointed....disappointed in myself....i cannot face 4people and i will neva know how to face them...1.Mummy 2. Papa 3.Joshua and 4. Myself! I dunno how to face myself...i neva noe how to face myself...ive really concentrated this term but stiu no improvement...infact deprovement.....how am i gonna face the world face my hopeful parents and face confident Joshua! How am i gonna face the once me who did well in exams and never fear of getting bad results....how am i gonna tell mummy i really tried and i really tried my best...How am i gonna explain to Joshua who held hopes on me saying when i go for exams, at least i have to bring sumthing good back....but what i brought back was a piece of junk! I have to receive my punishment now....i dunno how mummy will react upon seeing this horrible results, i wonder what Joshua will say when he sees me Fail again! My hopes are lost now....should i give up? Should i not care anymore? I am really lost! I need someone to talk to? I dunno what i should do now! Crying over spilt milk is useless...i am really lost.....

Wad a long time.....

2005-05-16T08:21:00.000+08:00

Haix....havent updated for like 9days....just too lazy to blog la...many things have happen this few days....people hav been going nuts, good things have happen..bad things as well....well wadeva...no more beating around the bush...let me start off...ok....erm i start by talking about last thursday! We had IT on thursday and our IT project is to create an advert.....well so i am the scriptwriter and i wrote the script in like 5mins and Miss Guo stiu said it is good! So now it is the directors part to play....he was supposed to film the damn thing so the director went to borrow the cam....we waited for him and later when to set up, all ready to film....we chose a right spot but guess what we were short of 1 actor so the director thought of a "brilliant idea". He thot of asking another group of people to act for us......ok so wadeva....but the big prob is the people he chose to film for us is his group of effing lovers, the people i dun like at all......i disagreed but he didnt allow me and decided to proceed with th plan to get his "lover boy and shit gang" to act....the date Friday after school for 50mins, right before sports day! How can he put it at that time....it is totally unfair, taking away our break time just like tad.....so on friday, he asked JF to film but Jf said he wanted to go for lunch...! So we ignored him and went to my house! The director has been angry with me for the whole day...by right i should be angry with him for planning behind our backs.... and worst is, he goes around telling everybody things about me.....like i am this, i am that, i do this, i do that..... i cannot believe someone can be so fucking bitchy in this way...and is so truly madly deeply fucking in love with someone that he even got him onto my fucking project....he really deserve a big fat slap so he could just wake up and stop doing this type of outrageous thing in front of our face.....i cannot stand this crap anymore so final decision....we dun care....i am going to tell Miss Guo that this can be his personal sex tape with his "lover-boy" i dun wanna be involved in this fucking sex show.....he will not be in our project and will never be involved....i dun give a fuck....he wants to record them having 48hours orgy or 20hours of anal, so be it......dun bring us into the story and i dun want any bitch to be in our effing project......that script is mine....and my only....no misusage and is strictly copyrighted... i wunt allow any slut to spoil it....tads final.....i will disagree to the project....it is not mine.....and i wunt accept it....as long as one person disagree...the project is rejected...i tink we could even do a better job without him....Let me tell you.....u wanna have sex and fun...dun do it in front of us....you wanna force ur rubbish into our mouths, sorry we wunt accept....you wanna play punk....BRING IT ON....lets see......want me to be evil....so be it....u see the evilness....you are getting on my last nerve now....betta watch it Fugly Father Fucking Bitch....!BRING IT ON!

haix...exam over...

2005-05-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

Phew..ew.....exam over! So glad tad i cant finally breathe...well maths was averagly hard....hope i will pass with erm 25/40...i am glad...my english expository 18/30! So depress...not expecting this type of shit results! Aniwae....i asked my chinese teacher, she said i get something like 32/50...wadeva it is i still pass! haha....i am praying now tad i get tad sort of result...it will be like my best lor! Aniwae, my new tuition techer is good wad...prefer her to the other smelly china product one! Well, i tried really hard to talk to GW! I am so glad he at least said a word to me, even though, he did not look at me, he stiu said a word to me! I am very very happy at least all this hard word pay off....even if he did not talk to me much, he still said a word! Thanks all of you, i did not noe despite all those sorrow we went thru, you all stiu there for me and supporting me! I am really happy, i have such friends like you all! Thnks guys! Now the exams are over i spend my days playing Neopets....for as long as i like! I have a question here tad i need help guidance! Is Imesh safe to use? pls reply thru the tagboard...thnks! Ok....about today! Erm, long time ago when i play neopets, i borrowed money from this person call CH, now he wants me to return him money but i really dun have such money so he keep asking me for stuff, XY, help me pls! Feel really bad when asking you for NPS? so went out with my mum to sort of celebrate mothers day! Treat her ot coffee bean and bought her a gift! So in coffee bean we talk about lots of family stuff, not to say on my blog! haha, seldom talk so much...thanks mom! Love you lots! so here i am blogging before i sleep...gotta go, must like sleep liao..see ya!

Exam sick...haix.....

2005-05-05T13:01:00.000+08:00

Haix...exam coming to an end soon.....i am so dead...my science is totally flunkilicious lol....i cannot finish the god damn paper and it is so demoralizing...i hate the effing teacher who set this shitty paper...so tough...wanna kill us...haix..the 1st multiple choice question wanna die liao..spent 20 mins on MCQ and another 10 mins on balancing chem equations and the rest on open ended! Shit la....dun wanna think bout it...got maths somemore....History roxs...i hope i will do well....aniwae Mr fernandez is the BEST TEACHER in the whole entie world...he roxs to the core....neva seen a male teacher so nice...i hope he will teach me until i am in sec4! I will neva let of history....it will stay with me until sec4. Ok ..my entry today is partly about the frost phamily! Frost is ending soon the frosty ice is melting into water and evaporate into the air.......summer is returning and the wintry family is breaking....!It is really sad..tok to kenny very long on the phone..toking about someone....and i read sombody else blog...found out tad this particular someone's form teacher has found out about the iccident...!Haix....! Why is it like tad...? And the teacher said if he dunsettle the prob by friday, the other someone mum will settle it....? Can this not happen! I pray real hard but why is this happening? Is it all my fault! It is totally my fault! Why? HAix.......hey i gotta go now see ya soon!

History repeats itself!

2005-05-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

Haix..so tired after my first double test day in my lifetime!Phew...need a break, need some air! I cannot wait for this to get over common test with! So sianx....! Mrs AT had put a protection on her blog now, you need a password before you can enter..haix...aniwae my entry today is about something! Once again, the hurting feeling came back to me! The feeling of rejection is so unbearable! You lied to me again and i am so disappointed! Especially to this particular someone who i trusted so much....so much! I asked you where you are going but you lied to me saying you are going to the canteen, later you said you are going home then you said you are visiting him! Both of you, i amjust totally sppechless! Your face split the beans, and i found out everything! You know he hates to see me and the sight of my face "makes him busy"! You two walked over and joined them living me all alone behind! I was lost, i didnt know whether to walk towards them all just walk away! Then he appeared and he saw me, straight away he said he is busy and turn away, i did not want to be there right at there moment, so i walk away with tears brimming in my eyes! I was at the verge of tears! Suddenly, Kenny said good bye to me and i turned around to say bye! I controlled my tears and put up a happy front and yep a "bye" to him and bite my lips not to let the tears spill out but no, it came out! I quickly ran home not to let anyone see me! I feel so left out and rejected, each time i thought of the fun you all are sharing, leaving me left outside alone walking myself home! I am hurt but i dun feel the pain anymore, i wunt feel pain anymore! I dunnno whether i should say this but it is really kept in my heart for a long time, i really need to spit it out!

Have you every felt hurt from doing this to us? Do you know how much sorrow we are going through and how much pain we felt everytime we see all of you all together and not being allowed to go over! Have you ever felt left outside alone, NO because all of you will only think about yourself and not think of others!

I met ZK today early in the morning! He was above the grandstand area! He is very different now, he hasnt smile, he hasnt laugh, he is like spring without the flowers! He look different now, his joyful face had turn into a really depressed face and he seem lost with words all the time! Wad has happen to him? Wad has happen to us? Where is the frost family? Where is ZK glamness? All lost! Spring without flowers.........just like winter with sunshine...summer with snow....all wrong now, when will it ever be right, i dunno but all i know is tad the angel will be blessing all of you all for the period of common test and other examinations! Despite how rejected or hurt it is, he would be there for all of you, his smile would always be on his face even at times when he is at his lowest! His tears are dried up and he would fake a smile! All i ask is for you all to accept ZK once again! Even if you all were to hate me forever, i stiu wish tad u will accept ZK! He really needs you all and is waiting for a person to talk to him! Pls do me a last wish!

Bored sick!

2005-05-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

Haix...my whole sunday spent on Maths and other work...apart from doing homework......i did nothing else....haix...XY gave me full lab...oh my so good lol..now i can like zap my pets whenever i like...hoping tad they change types....heehee.....KC, GW and AG's blog have this crazy person tagging thinking tad they are prostitudes....selling themselves.....crazy....if we find out hu tad bitch is...he will get a big slap! KC check the url and he says it is the same as RL.....oh my...cannot be him la...we will find out soon...haix...ending off now....must do more work....guess i will be sleeping at 2 tonight! So see ya!

All alone!

2005-04-30T15:57:00.000+08:00

Haix...wad a boring weekend! All i do at home all day is study and study! Common test is near and i am really worried! I hate science, i dun even understand wad the hell is ZA teaching about! Shie is really cranky..just speeding thru lessons....AH.....wad are they gonna test about Enzymes! So lost! Then, have to really study for history as i have not been paying much attention in class...DIE...but history just memorise can liao la! So bored! My parents and sister have all gone to Malacca, should be going as well but has to stay home for common test! Haix....then again going there is bored as well as none of my cousins are going! So it is me and a few of my cousin left in Singapore, all alone! Boredom can be overcome thru work....so i am doing as much as i can now! Hey must get good results lol...haix...pls pray for me! Ok....so i tink i start studying with science so Science...so see ya...gotta go studying....

Thot thru hard..

2005-04-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

i am supposed to go to Malacca this Saturday but guess i am not going now...i need to catch up more on my work.....Haiz...Most of my time is spend on reading all your blogs and looking at Neoprints and Prague images....Haix....I had the strangest dream last night and i saw a very beautiful portrait......In the picture, was all of us, drew really beautifully......i woke up this morning and i really feel tad i had to do sumthing.....so i finally talked to PL.......philip i tink u realised tad as well when we went for the england trip thingie at the auditorium....i was laughing with you because i really wished this was the old time where u, andrew and me can laugh and talk together thinking we rule the world and walk slowly uo the stairs blocking all those people. Haha..so i have messages for everyone now! Pls read your following messages (Names would be spelled out instead of initials)

Philip, I think you know how important you are in my life.You are like my shadow, never leaving me unwanted...when i asked u to accompany me for NaFa on Friday, you agreed despite you already passing the whole thing. You are a very trusted friend whom i believe in and i would neva eva wanna lose you....pls forgive me for wad i did the past few days, ignoring you and hating you!

Andrew, you are a very talented person and a person hu always remain neutral in difficult times and help us settle misunderstanding. You are the only person tad i neva get angry with because looking at you sometimes really makes me laugh. All the weird things you do and all the funny singing u sung...really memorable to me! Best Friends Forever!

Guo Wei, i know you are hating me alot or (wadeva...my usage of words suck).... but deep inside my heart, i dun hate you at all....neither am i angry disappointed or wad so ever.....all i am now is just to afraid to talk to u....watching you walk away without even looking at me makes me hurt. Pls talk to me, as i really have alot to tell you....You were standing on the bridge outside the staffroom. i walked towards you but you did not see me and you walked downstairs....i didnt follow as i saw Guo Yang at the corner and i would rather talk to u somewhere queiter.....All i wanna say is can we treat eah other like in Prague....

Kenny, you are the smartest peson i have eva known (besides Gorilla...ewww) I would always remember the times where we sat at the back of the bus and strapped you with the seat belt and tickled you so hard thad you shouted so loudly.....and oso the time when u helped me with tose whorrible Simulatneous Equation..you are always like a bigger brother to me, helping me alot in both Life and academy....we walked pass each other many times today but did not even look each other in the eye....i hope we could talk again. Haix....

Zheng Kai, you are like my god brother, a person that is forgiving and nice. We are on the same boat now, the only way for all of us to be friends again is to talk and reason out our problems....this will be solved no matter wad....we cannot go on hating eaach other....so pls follow me and we talk to all of them ok.....

So i am done and i hope after you all read this, you will leave me a message on my tagboard. I have left messages for you all as well except Andrew hus blog has problems....so see ya

I dun see why i deserve such friends?

2005-04-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

I am so bored now...not talking to so many ppl, i started to tok to many others.....people i used to really hate has actually become my friends...haiz....

PL u tink i am angry with u but NO....i am angry with nobody....i dun care whether you are neutral or wadeva...to me, it wunt have any impact....even if you hate me rite to the core, i stiu wunt feel the least bit sad....My heart is broken and difficult to mend....My friendship circle is smashed entirely by an enormous disaster and i am lost and blamed for everything....i used to be hurt but i dun see the point now...no feelings can penetrate my broken heart! It used to be spring but now it had turned icy cold winter....the delightful angel has become a weak, freezing emotionless piece of crap.....The angel has to leave to prevent more disaster and adding to his sins....My heart and hopes are like an epmty piece of land now....with trees tad have no leaves and ground tad is dried by drought, the sky is dark and cold.......the cold wind blows and there it is, sitting alone in the middle of nowhere weeping away. The used to be sunny and beautiful place has now ended up as a wasteland and the hopes and dreams of the angel is lost. PL i hope u understand now......wad i am really trying to say.

I met you, i walked pass you, you pretend tad u did not see me, i am not hurt now, I am emotionless now, I walked away, you did too, your friends did too, I went back to class, still thinking hard, he passed me the Neoprints, i did not reply him, he gave it to me, i did not care, i chuck it to....., he said he will safekeep it, i dun see the point, because every neoprint is a dagger ready to stab, i am injured but without a doctor, my hopes for a doctor faiths day by day ! The angel hopes tad god wuld find him one day but till then he walks alone now, with no company, no protection and no hopes! The angel wished tad he wuld be the ex-angel he used to be but he is unable to do it...wad done cannot be undone, even if there is a cut and when the cut healed, there wuld be scars to remind us. The angel used to be laughing and smiling, now................

Hurt Pain Sorrow, the name of my blog, a name tad remains unchanged, undone and will always repeat itself.......

Hurt Pain Sorrow

2005-04-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

Monday again! I hate Mondays....so busy....HAIZ....well..ive backed out of the China Trip..feel quite left out now but WN and JJ oso not going so neva mind la! WN invited me to some drama performance but because this particular person is performing so i didn't want to go! Haiz....life is full of miseries! I think i would be starting a new blog....probably diary x or some unknown blog tad will have a low profile.The hurt, the pain and the sorrow is returning back to me. Just when i thought all these would be gone, the fear haunts me again!

At time when i need all of you, this is what i get....

When i need you, you tell me "I am going to play Dota" and did not even give me a hand. I am not even sure whether i could trust you.

When i need you, you make matters worst by adding fuel into the fire and cause more hurt.

When i need you, you said you need to practice for some shit and i am like 99% sure you are gonna lose.

When i need you, you lied to me...you always do so and i am very used to it.

When i need you, you hated me and ignore me even up to a point saying you dun noe me.....i am very hurt!

When i need all of you, you all didn't care, leaving me in a dark corner with a bleeding heart stabbed by all of you.......i guess this would be the last time i would be angry or sad or happy or worried for you all......i dun even give a damn whether you lived survived, died or anything...i dun care anymore.....i am hurt......the hurt, pain sorrow laughter joy and all other emotion will be kept deep in my heart....i am emotionless now......I cannot bleed again and i wunt let tad happen.

You siad in your blog how good friends we were but later you said i took you for granted. I asked you what i did wrongly. You said nothing. I apologised, you ignore me. I dun even noe wad i did wrong and i dun even noe why you are angry with me. I tried my best, you ignore me even up to a point saying you dun noe me...Does it feel painful to you? Are you human? It hurts alot hearing wad you said! I wanted to sit with you, you asked him to sit somewhere. I slammed your Geog book on the table, i dun tink you even care. I did tad as i cannot take it anymore and u should noe tad...i dunno wad you want from me but just to let you noe....i dun care anymore.....

You neva learn...everytime you hurt me by your actions even in Sake, right in front of my face. Sometimes i wished i neva know you just like when i was in Sec 1......hating u....u whisper into peoples' ears and not letting me noe...you even do tad in front of my face...i forgave u countless times...you neva learn....now i need u so much and there you are playing DOTA....i wish you all the best in your game.

I met you only this year and became really close friends.You are facing the same trouble as me but there you are singing away for your audition. I want to pour out my sorrows but now i swallowed it back......i am left outside alone.Hurt and lost without help.

You lie to me...all the time.....this is not the first... yuo said your grandma is comng but you are actually being judge for tad dumb audition of your friend. I am really lost and i dun tink yuo would bother to help.

Cupid has lost its wings, slahed off by all of you....from now on, he would not be able to fly around to be with his closest friends but to get bullied by his worst enemy....he would crawl his way back to his beloved DARK CORNER to mend his broken heart. The angel has lost its laughter and the power to dream. The angel would continue living its life but not be able to feel the emotions of the world....and lastly he would like to say all the best to his friends before disappearing to the depths of hell to receive its hurting punishment.

Sunday....come quickly..go as quickly...

2005-04-24T14:46:00.000+08:00

Haiz..read many peoples' blog...but one particular one stunt me....not because the blog is nice, but the blog is really hurting....i tink the person know who he or she is... The person is angry with me for taking pix with my "God-Bro" leaving him out...and wrote alot if things bout how he felt and stuff....but wad i want to tell you is tad...i am very sorry for neglecting you and you are the only person hu would understand me and the feeling of neglection!Haiz...i noe u r very disappointed so maybe you should just relax for a while before talking to us again! Haiz....anyway my entry today is supposed to be about my sister! My sister has been reading all these ghost stories and cannot sleep at night...it has been like 2 weeks when she is like tad.....yesterday night she woke up at 1 am in the morning at start to scream and kick the wall? Dunno why ? so scary...my father smack her real hard and my mum took all the ghost storybooks and rip it into many pieces...Oh my....they then brought her to the temple to pray the next day! Oh my, it is like pocession lol....very scary! The other time,my cousin was reading books on witchcrafts and he too had bad dreams....his mum took all his witchcraft stuff and threw it into the drain and flush it down with water.....oh my...this is really creepy....

Haiz...exams is near and i really have to work real hard so see ya soon...gotta go back to work!

Neoprints and Saturday!

2005-04-23T20:17:00.000+08:00

Haha...Saturday back again..Just totally love the weekend...always looked forward to it....haha...Today..woke up with a rather bad cough and a slight sore throat....must be JF or PL pass to me....they were coughing like mad this few days....haiz....Somebody sms me today asking me for the admin password....to tad person...even if i have i wunt give it to u....u all start playing games again....the whole 2-3 gets into trouble....so i wunt....tads final! So i woke up at like 10 and watch pokemon at 10.30....u can laugh out loud but i stiu loved pokemon as much as eva...no doubt on tad...cut out all the neoprints and seperate into different envelopes for my friends.....very nice Nprints indeed....Did some hmk and went out to visit my baby cous, Andrea....so cute.... haiz...totally not looking forward to the next 2 weeks...
1)Monday 25 april: Science Prac Test...
2)Friday 29 april: Unconfirmed Maths Test adn Narfa Test
3)Tuesday 3 may: English and Higher Chinese Common Test
4)Wednesday 4 may: Science Common Test
5)Thursday 5 may: History Common Test
6)Friday 6 may: Maths Common Test
Oh my i am so worried and stress....My Chinese test sure like shit and I havent been paying attention during History lesson...so scared....hope i do well for History Test lol.....Science testing on Enzymes...wad to study...i oso dunno...so worried....save me..betta stop liao....must do more work..see ya

Guo wei's birthday and the fun on the next day...

2005-04-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

Many things hae happened in these two days...haha.. could say more good then bad...start with bad first ok.... OWM, IT byatch did something really whorradous....hate her foreva.... she took away our admin rights..Now in our Tablet wif heve 2 accounts...1 is administrator which is the school and the next is us....the limited user...we cannot install or uninstall anything....cannot even install a mouse, thumb drive or external hardrive....of course, no more downloads and all our games have been cleared dry...nuthing left...haiz....but thanks to trustworthy friends...i got something tad can really help me if all these...wunt say anymore, dun wanna be troubled by people for some reasons...

Yesterday was Gw's birthday...went to celebrate together...ate at Sake Sushi....not bad..glamour abit...quarrelled with PL over some small thing but settled liao....heehee...At sake we met this group of JC students who offered us a plate of food....stupid people think we poor is it...idiots think we sec school no money....funny ah....didnt bother them....GW nearly scolded them....we then go to pretty pix to take photo and had so much fun designing and adding lots of stars, crowns and flowers...haha...took 2 pictures yesterday..only 2....then at night played GIAI Online....haiz...cute but dumb la....fishing and really try really hard to catch good fishes...receive an sms at night asking me to go out again today....of course i will go la...didnt do anything yesterday night....this morning, met at my class to give out the shots...cool.... a few ppl crowded over to take a look....AC not here today (sick because of tests la..this year more then 10 times liao)....very pro rite..always when there is tests on the next day, he will disappear...buy mc one la....so there is nobody there to chase my friends out...nobody cares la...all very nice people....2-3 love ya....The only people thad scream at GW they all is AC...haiz.... so at 4 we met at J8 wanted to take more shots....GW was late...so AT was very angry and quarrelled wif GW...luckily we stopped them....so we went to take out photo....junior first then senior then alot more la...took wif God Bro 2 times oso....quite ex lol...10 for one time....I took like 4 times today...wif diff people...design like siao....heehee...so nice lol....haha....cutting photos now....really very nice...ok listening to the collection of Britney songs...gonna go finish more work liao...see ya..

Something sbout this week....

2005-04-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

Heehee...haven't update for like a few days...kinda busy....the whole of my Sunday was spend on doing some stupid Bio Journal...10% of my SA results....so crazily doing....did for like a ver long 12 to 18 hours....then Monday choir starts again...not really a practice but just a wasting time session with DL....he is forcing ask to go to China...but it is not tad we cannot go but the trip is like on our school days and somemore, my subjects does not seem to be very good so....betta not go....and the thing is tad last year december already spend alot of money, 1200 for prague, 3500 for tablet, 500 for ipod mini....like so much money so now oppopsite...saving time....well this week many things happened good and bad. Haha...
Tuesday was the best day eva....should be called "MY DAY"....started with my favourite Home Econs.....the lesson i always loved since i was sec 1.....It was the week we are supposed to cook our national dish....had lots of fun....We made japanese food....Partners AH and AKY...both good chefs..haha...so i brought the ingredients to school and at the first period we started cooking liao...We made Soba Noodles, Sushi and Miso Soup....I am not describing the process as this is not a recipe book...but it was really fun...we were like the only group that got praised by MS DL....TH group made italian food but accident happened...troy forgotten to off the stove so JC nearly got burn....CH group had unreasonable problems...they did not discuss wad to cook, in the end, CH and NK cooked the same dish....Fried Rice and BP forgotten to bring his ingredients....so blur....GYT made some mexican food....which was a cheat....He bought the nachos so all he have to do was to fry the beef and pour it onto the nachos before adding the sauce...so easy...KL group made Singapore food....Rojak, Fried Kway Tiao and something else la....kind of ok...CCY made Greek Omelette which was basically frying the egg with tomatoes....AC group was actually good, they made western food....fish and chip but as you know, the process is very tedious so they did not have enuf time and only made 1 dish.....haiz....ok but DL gave us quite high marks la....so glad....Thanks Mom for helping me so much...Home Econs make my day.....When i brought up the food, GW was nearby so i gave him one sushi to try...he said it was very good then we let KC try which also said very good and let RL try...tricked him by telling him tad the wasabi is not hot but in fact it is very hot so he ate a whole entire chunk of it...too bad RL.....AG was angry becos i neva let him try...hahaha....then was maths period, LT gave out papers...i pass my maths test..yeh......but was a slight pass la 7/12...the thing is tad..i failed practically all the rest...haiz....working harder now...When homeafter school, walked with GW,ZK and PL....GW and me were talking bout glam things on how glam new york is...hahha.....the thing about the GW and Me is tad we share the same interest...tad is why we could become friends in Prague...we use to hate each other alot....haha...Did Joshua hmk....so sianz....Today was a very busy day...right after school i had to rush home for tuition.....like mad la...pass my 2.6km run...haha...finally....so tmr is GW birthday... haha...so happy early birthday... gotta go do hmk haha....see ya...

What the hell?

2005-04-18T08:59:00.000+08:00

I am blogging now apparently because ZA chased all of us out from the science lab...she asked us a question on sumthing about what colour the benedict solution would change...she said i told you all this before, but nobody remembered so for that she chased all of us back to class..byatch....my sharepoint e mail finnaly ok liao..just send her the bio journal. I spent the whole of sunday just doing the journal....haven't even touch Joshua's homework. Haiz..sad....Stiu verry shock by wad ZA did...kinda wrong...they say having depression....probably la...haha...aniwae....JF is sick today..haha..KC said the candle is burning at 39degrees. Haiz... JJ was talking about her shoving up a test tube inside her vagina...and now, trying to take it out..haha....so ZA needs to take a hell lot of time be4 she reaches class...AC calls her a sex machine...saying she aborts baby all the time....JF is cursing the baby to fall out..ohmy....kinda bad actually....i am so bored by her lesson now ....gonna fall asleep...JJ is sitting beside me now...very weird today...i realised the person hu is sitting on the seat tad JF sits, gets very MEAN....haha...wadeva la...i actually wanted to write more bout my sis bdae party..well you see...bcos the party ended so late, my mum had to clean up together with the maid...so she woke up in a bad mood scolding me...saying i am very rude at the party..mad woman....is like they spilted oil on my slippers, instead of telling me, she left the thing there without washing and when I wore the slipper there were oil all over my leg...tad is the fukeking reason i am so angry....then she keep scolding me the whole day and when i told her i have a science project to do and i am very busy so i need to cancel my chinese tuition, she got even angrier...like it is my fault i have science project lol.....so i told her i need to like spend the whole day doing project liao so she purposely cancel my dinner with my grandmother and make me do my fucking homework for the whole day....she is a bitch....must stay home and eat her shit like home cook vomit....so fuming mad....and she said right after dinner you better go upstairs and finish Joshua homework or else i am going to whack you...Wadeva....i when upstairs to chat lol..and use the toilet for like 1/2 hour....heehee..ending off here...may continue later...because ZA is scolding me for talking.....see ya soon

Debbie's birthday!

2005-04-17T00:53:00.000+08:00

Wonder why i am updating so late at night...not becos i cannot sleep, becos my sister's birthday party just ended.Well it is her 11th bdae so we celebrated for her and invited lots of people...angry wif my mom throughout the party... she spilled oil on my slippers while carrying the food out to the carpark....didnt tell me or clean up, just left the slippers there without saying anything....then when i wore the things, i stepped into a pool of oil....YUCKS....so slippery...nearly fell... so angry lol....hiaz....spent lots of time doing the DUMB BIO JOURNAL....so stupid....TH spend 8 hours...i think i will be breaking his record...so far i've took 4 hours liao...see how long more....its like only 1/3 done....haiz...gotta finish by hook or by crook....haiz...so here i am sitting in the dark with my table lamp, burning the midnight oil, workig real hard....wadeva....so gotta go back to work...see ya soon

ps:Dumb blog is lagging....

My Days...

2005-04-14T04:58:00.000+08:00

haha...was supposed to updated yesterday but had tuition and was sick... went to sleep after tad because i was really tired and sianz....so did not update lol.... haiz....update now...kinda of a longer entry...haha

Yesterday was really nice..though not feeling very well, i had lots of sorrow and laughter ...both la....ok first was i wore pe shirt to morning assembly, didn't noe, thought can but actually cannot so got punish together with alot of other people, to stand in front of the school...so embarrassing..then was MH period where she mistaken me for yi wei...hate her lol....how could she do tad... yi wei said wait then MH said Daryl Chee said wait and is still looking intensly at the tablet...wad the hell, number 1, i did not say WAIT, u fat byatch, number 2, i am not looking intensly into my tablet, i am only opening the file of the woksheet tad you are going thru....then when i open the worksheet, something when wrong and i ask JF to help me, then MH said again, dun worry Daryl, you will get your turn to say out answers...wad the hell is wrong with her....crazy..i was so fumingly mad....haiz....so relax..chill...so before assembly, was contact time, one of the worst lesson yet funniest lesson for this whole year i guess...Contact time and carpe diem are the 2 lesson taught by our form teacher, but guess wad, to us this 2 lessons are quarrelling and arguing sessions with my form bitch teacher MR WCS....hahaa.....he is really stupid...very very god damn stupid...(even worst then the karen in Mean Girls)oh my rite....we all hate him alot....ok but today was really scary at the same time funny....you see, we always laugh at WCS when he is angry..we would really laugh so loud tad he gets angrier...haha...He came into class today and saw alot of peeps playing games...TH was like playing right under his nose, he walked around but nobody cares...so he shouted everybody close your tablet in 10 sec....so he count down....nobody really care but he kinda got fiercer so people start closing la...AC was like dun care dun care until WCS ran over to him and he quickly close in the last sec....then he just glare at that bitch....good job AC....then was SC...SC was shutting down his computer but WCS did not noe so he walked over to SC and slam down his tablet, SC just open it again, but WCS slam it down again...then SC said very loudly (like quarrelling) I shutting down, when you close the tablet while shutting down, the computer will jam.....WCS said i dun care...he just took SC tablet and said i am confiscating this...and he just walk away....SC stood up and picked up the 20 cent coin on his hand and threw at WCS....yes you did not hear wrongly, but he did it...SC is a rocker man..always debating with WCS but now he finally did something really nice...WCS just turn around and shouted very very loudly tad everybody from outside the class turn in to look, even people from the oposite classrooms...." COME HERE" very nice indeed....haha...then WCS asked SC whether he threw the coin, SC said yes but not at him...then he said Why The Thing Hit My head...SC kept quiet..then WCS shouted at us You All got attitude problem, come down for morning asembly late, playing games in class and talking....even right in front of me also can play games....then he looked at TH...TH said i neva, i was closing...Then H shouted again DUN SAY YOU NEVA...oh my...we were all laughing like mad...then the whole class was defending SC...we were like, tmr got english test need to study from the tablet..and blah blah blah...but WCS said i dun care...he asked SC to stand at the side of the hall for asembly....wadeva..nobody cared la...even SC dun care....haiz....

TODAY was very nice as well...SC when to claim back his tablet, which was with WCS for 1 whole night....dunno wad he do to it....SC when to the technical staffroom and knocked on the door but nobody answered...he tried to open it and was like pressing the hander, suddenly WCS appeared from the side and said trying to force the door open rite, i actually wanted to return to you but now i dun 1...wad rubbish...WCS is a bitched up fucking old sht face moron hu did not go to school la...but in the end he return to SC...next was english test and MH period...it was very nice lol, MH was going thru the worksheet and she ask JJ for a characteristic of the narrator, JJ said nature loving..then MH said are we reading the same story...wad evidence you have to back up the point....JJ said she miss the old beech...and his beech sound like bitch...so old bitch...i was the first to burst out laughing....hahaha..then the rest all laugh very loudly...MH said...i dare you to go home and say that to your mother....JJ was laughing as well, his whole face was red....hahaha...then MH said it is pronounce as beeeeeeeech....pronounce the e longer....then JJ said once more she missed the old beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeech....very long this time...we all were laughing non stop..haha....then MH said how can you prove tad, she only state the beeeeeech, she did not state any flora and fauna....JJ said but tad is still nature loving wad she said when i left this town, the thing i missed most was the beeeeeeeeeeeeeeech and the ocean....we were still laughing....then MH said no, tad is not counted as nature loving...then JJ said maybe you are not nature loving enough...then MH said read somemore resident evil la...(JJ favorite book)..now english become like tad...so he sat down...MH asked a few more people then later do the third part of the ws...haha...then she was walk around the class to check wad we've done. She looked at JJ tablet and saw alot of spelling mistakes...JJ spelt SPEAK as SPECK, then she said wad speck, then JJ said spell wrong, then he delete and type again, this time he spelt as speack....then MH said again wad Speack...JJ said sorry then he finally typed the correct one. MH pushed his head and said read somemore resident evil la....the thing tad is the same between JJ and JF is tad they cannot spell correctly so in the end end up really funny when they read in class...recess was bad for me...thanks to PL...he was talking about some weird topic with AT but when i asked him he said Nuthing la.....i hate it when people says thad....so i asked again but he said the same thing....i was angry so i ignore him for the rest of the day...very nice rite..why dun you get a taste of your own medicine PL....soon it was dismisal and i walked home wif GW, ZK and KC...thanks alot guys... for walking with me..despite the hot weather...thanks god RL did not come....he always like not fit in lol...oh btw...RL dun buy the same bag as me...or else..............so here i am now ending my entry lots of work to do, speech to prepare and test to study, i'll end off now...see ya...

You are very bitchy....

2005-04-12T16:37:00.000+08:00

(LT's scandal is actually his young sister inlaw or something her blog is ggraciie.blogspot.com go and read and you will understand...read the entries at the bottom...)so LN you can stop acting smart saying she is in your school and stuff like wad living with the adopted parents,all untrue lier....)

I did not do anything wrong and i dun deserve all this...why muz i always be the one begging all you people for forgiveness...when sometimes im not even at fault...one of my close friend cheated in the maths test and he told LT....LT did not minus his mark so he passed. He told me today and i said so unfair....then i was asking him some questions... but he kept saying that he was careless in the last question or else he can get 2 more marks...i said...you should be glad you cheated and pass, still complaining for what...this is very unfair to us....and for that he got angry with me....he called me a bitch and justr stomped off...i dun deserve or this...and now wad i hav to do KNEEL DOWN AND BEG FOR FORGIVENESS... I am not going to do anything bout this and neither i am gonna care anymore whether you all hate or like me...because wad i am gonna do wunt change anything...this is very pointless...now it is maths lesson so i will stop here..

Continue now....just reached home not long...haha...i read Gabriel Choew's blog and i should say i kinda agree...i didnt expect the top 2 position...alot of people as well bcos we really underperform....i listened to our 3 syf songs again and again but the worst thing is that in Luk Luk Lumbu....the last HOYA totally dropped...but still weird why we got top 2 despite saying tad, at least our hard work paid off...haiz...back to reality....i am very disappointed in myself...did rather bad again for my maths...haiz....not like tad last time dunno why like tad now...so shity...well miss by 1 mark today to pass in the end end up in LT's maths remedial....many did quite bad as well oh well...i will not ever play computer games again.(swear)..MH was in a bad mood today probably bcos alot of people neva do their work haiz....but i tink she is still one of my best teacher. LT's remedial was with the roudy 2-6 oh my...they are very crazy screaming around asking LT stupid questions...haha..but he worst is tad Ming Han is in there...ewwwwwww...hate ming han alot..Ming han is in the same class as AT and he keeps disturbing him. 2 things ming han hates is AT and gays..and he tinks Guo wei and his whole gangs are gays....(SO NOT TRUE)...so he calls us AT "andrew chiobu" super byatch...then he will write it on his tablet and ask AT...ur favourite word...AT will juz ignore...when i step foot into tad class..he straight away point the middle finger at me....oh my...then he ask LT stupid question like "why are you sweating so much...." "so easy teach wad" then 2-6 will ask him to shut up....haiz wadeva la..guess i really end here gotta practice maths...see ya

Lt pedophile secret

2005-04-11T17:37:00.000+08:00

(LT's Pedophile secret)

Pedophile means someone who is sexually attracted to children.

I have included a title today juz to catch all or your attention to urge you to read tis entry.....Ok..Today is really a bitchy day for the start of the week. Started with the dumb practical lesson with a sucking experiment to do...the hell with tad thing...so tedious...need to pour the solution and take again and then pour away and take again....did tad bout 20 times....but glad tad i learn to light a bunsen burner....i had a phobia of bunsen burner striking back so...finally overcome it...haha....then got scolded by tad terrible pregnent Whore....i wanted to insult the baby in her stomach but it is innocent so i rather insult her....she is a god damn temperamental slutface Malay Chinese (mixed blood)Bitch hu does nuthing but scolds us...pls we are not as "experienced" as you so mistakes does appear...then was Maths...(my ex-favourite subject)...now it is not really my favourite...it is rather difficult to excel in maths now so guess....work harder...

LT totally embaressed me...he ask me some dumb linear graph question which i dunno how to answer....you see the day he thot the basic of tad dumb linear graph was on Wednesday, my syf day so i missed out quite abit...thank god Joshua is coming tis Wednesday to buck me up...Phew.....ok but now is the exciting part....LT was teaching us Maths from is Tablet PC..suddenly msn messsenger open and was signing in....the address is gracepeh91 @hotmail.com

LT just quickly close the window but as he goes on, a conversation appear and it was from thins same person name Grace....she was saying You are just so beautiful, looking at you can just make me fall asleep...i luv u and stuff....it is so mushy....then Mr Tan hurriedly close the conversation....and the class burst out laughing...He said tad girl is 14years old, studying in a school near Seng Kang, if you are lucky, you may find her blog and her blog has trojan virus....wad wuld he be doing with a 14 year old girl, if it is his daughter he wuld juz straight away say it rite...somemore where got daughter send so mushy stuff to her dad...and wad wuld she write on her blog...i slept with ******** yesterday, it was so sweet, He.....* sensored*............. you noe....tad is very disgusting...oh my.... LT is juz weird....muz dig into his deep dark secret.oh my.....then MH period was fun...she was talking bout the Pope once again and i changed the topic to the "royal wedding" of Prince Charles and Camila....she said tad is SCANDALOUS...hahaha...MH you rox....then she called me and JF Royal Fans...haha....JF even show her some websites of tad wedding....oh my....hahaha...then Chinese Whorrible period where there was Whorible test and after tad stayed in skul to play a little CZ before walking home.....AT and PL came to my house....PL was totally drenched haha...then we went to the playgrund to play again....was spinning on the merry go round till PL flew out onto the sand...haha...all dirty....so fun....haiz..lots of work to complete....will write soon...

( My beloved free weekend)

2005-04-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

Ok supposed to update last friday but guess...i didnt care much so forgotten.... Ok friday roxs....tt love friday! Haha...as usual PL and AL came to moi house for "Study Group"...heehee....but since it is the weekend....we change it to a "play group"...haha...we went to the Merry Go Round and spin around until we were so dizzy....arhhhh?!?!!?!?!?!......*doink.... AT scream real loudly haha...Good screamer....then we played around and AT rode my bike...nearly fell....oops...but good rider haha...then i had tuition at 4 so they had to leave....so sorry...after tuition...watch abit of movie...didnt feel like doing any dumb hmk...sick of it...watched a cantonese show called Ali Baba...it was marvellous....i laughed and laughed till i roll on the floor....3 cheers to tad actor...u rox.... slept late and work up at 10.30 to watch POKEMON the next day

wad a joke rite...but i still love pokemon...haha....some togepi episodes....haha....next cooked lunch....i wanted to try frying noodles again but in the end...the maid did it...freaked out totally because the wok keeps splattering..i was screaming my head off...haha...then when out for dinner at this restaurant....ok less say the restaurant suxs..the bill is $1400 over $$...oh my rite...so for tad amount of money wad food do u expect??? Abalone, Shark Fin....Bird nest...all tose Typical chinese dish but the restaurant served food tad is really cheap....* wunt mention... My grandmother hu treated the 20 over of us was not satisfied....wad shit rite...the god damn restaurant look more like a museum then a typical chinese restaurant....all the antiques placed everywhere....ewwww....hate tose...when home unhappy....

Sunday morning sux....early morning tuition...got Chinese test tmr la....thurs still got expository writing test...friday still got some english oral presentation and maths test...still got science presentation...so buzy....wadeva thank god choir break time so PHEW..rest and more time to do work....haha....so did my hmk and when to my cousin house to play wif her...she is juz a baby so cute...watch her swim in her baby little pool...so cool haha.....then now i am blogging..so i tink i end off somewhere her...do a little more Joshua hmk before going to sleep...wanna rest early..Good Nite...sleep tight...dun let the bed bugs bite....* shld hear the ZK version....rite andrew...haha

Sumthing to noe...

2005-04-09T15:25:00.000+08:00

wadeva.....juz start...oko.i've added aaron's blog and keith blog....oh my keith likes wannabe rockers....so does not look like! Aniwae...GW is sick.....get well soon kk....EL SYF is coming...so scary....hope they do well....haiz...i am so sick and tired of LT.....i hate him alot...he is practically rushing thru maths....and i'm really tired trying to catch up wif him...tis is so dumb....all his shit test are to kill ppl ....he njoys watching people fail...byotch....hope i am able to pass the next test...haiz....nxt week is crazy week..Monday chinese test...thurs english expository test and fri maths test...so bitchy....still got science presentation....so buzy....ok,,,gotta stop real soon....need to do work....aniwae aaron....ur blog background is to insult snowprincess is it.....hahahha........ok end....see ya soon...

Jun Feng and Jing Jie

2005-04-07T13:03:00.000+08:00

Someone save me....give me a break! I am dying from all these craziness between these 2 people...JF and JJ....they are very crazy... 1 is very petty and gets angry over everything and blames everything on everyone except himself! The other byotch is slightly worst....he keeps thinking he is the best and everybody muz listen to him....wad rubbish! Read his dumb blog..h said even "even the richs have trouble" ....so hao lian...today we had IT lesson and we were handling cameras...i wanted to try out the video recorder but JJ keep saying i try liao..in fact i try but they keep bugging me to return to them...so unfair....then JJ get to slowly try out himself! How unfair! JF get to try out for so long also....haiz....i am giving up now....but you see i dun wanna lose anymore friends so i am not gonna be depressed by that.....haiz....wadeva it is ...good luck JJ hope you find a CCA soon!

Gold With Honours!

2005-04-06T17:41:00.000+08:00

Oh My Gawk....we made it....GOLD WITH HONOURS...heard tad THOMAS BYATCH...dun have to curse us.....it wunt work....i am so glad.....we were like the only choir in the morning tad got Gold With Honours...the next choir got gold which was Chung Cheng High Main.....there is one particular choir tad got COP.....oh my...but wadeva.....at least we made it...we were like screaming our guts out inside the hall until the speaker said there is an office downstairs and we shouldnt scream now....go outside and scream all we want...crazy....hahaha....The weird thing is tad the feeling of getting the award is not as good as in Prague...the prague one was like many of us crying and of course the compeitition was tougher as the choir there are MARVELLOUS ! I am now praying that we will get the top 5 best choirs in Singapore....then MK will treat us...hahaha.... ML was busy shaking all our hands saying Good Job...Well Done.... MC, SH, GKY and YPP were there supporting...GKY had to go probably because he is Sports and CCA HOD....MC because she taught us the words in Rhonde and YPP probably because he had to take over DL....DL is having Fever today....he did not go but he is praying for us at home.....haha...MK did not expect a Gold With Honours...he was like PHEW....all his other choirs lke VS, TKSS, CWSS all got gold with honours....he muz be really happy now....Oh well...i wish all the rest of the performing arts group all the best ...and get Gold With Honours...do the school proud....haha....only reconise the colour of gold! See Ya!

SYF Tension....

2005-04-05T10:03:00.000+08:00

(SYF Tension)
Oh my gawk....tmr is syf day liao....i am so tense tad i tink my shit wuld ooz out of my pants.....we muz be top 5 choir and gold with honours....i hate it....tad dumb VS got gold with honours....Fairfield Methodist got gold with honours...Anglican High got gold with honours.....and even the Raffles Voices (Raffles Instituion) got gold with honours....since so many schools got gold with honours of course must get 1 and besides tat we must be at least top 3 schools in Singpore....like wad LN say...so many people are cursing the choir hoping tad we get a silver.....but tomorrow....we muz reach our peak and grab tad 1st place trophey...the dumb fairfield methodist is conducted by LimAiHooi.....she lost in Prague...so this time her choir get Gold wif honours......she will definitely be proud and if we did not do so well..she will look down on us.....pls pray for us....we muz be the top of the top, the cream of the crop.....we muz be the best and when we are the best....we wuld be rewarded by both Mr Lee and Mr Kwei.....Mr Lee says he is all ready for celebrations....we muz not let him be disppointed.....we muz do well..... wadeva it is now, our goal have been brought to a higher level.....we must be the top.....
I am praying for all of our performance group....EL, CO, Band.....all try to get gold with honours....you see....all our uniform group practically suck (besides scouts)...i mean not so good...so the only way to pull the school up is the sports like softball and basketball plus the performance group like the choir which neva make mistakes .....haiz....god pray for us....today is TK's turn so ....TK do your worst.....hahahhaa......

The progress after letting off steam...

2005-04-04T21:27:00.002+08:00

haiz...now tad mysteam is out, i am able to speak! LN you are my good friend, it is just tad i cannot believe tad you wrote such thing! First of all i did not do anything so i tink i dun deserve all these. Next i have enuf of my own problems so i really cannot help u or figure and understand...(i dun even listen to ZK or GW prob)..thirdly, I tink insulting my cca and sir name is very wrong...(i dun do tad to you)....aniwae even if you dun wanna tok to me, we still have to finish the science project or else it will affect both us and the very "innocent" JJ! Ok wadeva i dun wanna tok bout LN animore...lets tok bout today! A rainy day thus making me feel sleepy and bored! Hate rainy days, spoils my mood! A series of unfortunate events....1st the dumb LN prob which i have nuthing to do wif but probs look 4 me...then is my fucking maths result...then is ZK behaving very weirdly..then AT got frightened by a cat (again i was accused)...haiz....bad luck! Oh and THOMAS you r a bitch as well...i dunno u well so can u pls like stop insulting choir or you will get a piece of us! The only delightful thing is tad i got an A for my acc composition! Haiz.....Choir is all ready for syf....we are gonna carry tad gold with honours trophey home..... We are gonna rock tad SCH!haha....choir is place i truly feel home...a place where we are united and we work as 1, a place where evryone has a part to play! Well DL scolded me today...he thot i was a sec 1 and lack of focus ..haiz..i opened my eyes only wad...closing my eyes make me sleepy la...haiz.....heehee....he is kinda good teacher la...so i wunt insult him....wadeva...gotta do more simultaneous equation...muz do well for the nxt test! haha....nitez

Anger mangement

2005-04-04T11:36:00.000+08:00

It is MH period, one of my fave period of the day but i gotta write this entry now as i really have to let off steam....GW if you are reading, you gotta help me ok! It is about Lennart Ng Peng Yu a.k.a The Fugly backstabbing slut face byatch!I cannot stand bout another sight of his gap toothed bitched up face. He is so freaking hell looking for problems....the friendship vase is broken, stabbed and cracked, totally destroyed! He insulted my choir..as you all wuld noe i wuld die for choir and do anything to back it up! You insult my choir, you are dead meat! Read his shit blog for more details! Let me tell you fucked up byatch....EL will sux right into the damn core with suxkers like you! I am not cursing EL or insulting it as i dun wanna be like a slut like you! People like ZK and some el members still rock! I am sad to say this but choir will not get anything lower than a gold..the worst we wuld get is still a gold....as for EL...cop will do! Sorry El but i really have to say this.....LN you are a fugly, fat ass, gap toothed, bitched up, sucking hell, god damn HT loving fucked up bitch hu suck HT's balls till it turns red and sore...kenny will murder you when he hears your insults....you know wad...we all hate you forever and you can jolly well go home and fuck your mum and dad and bathe with your nice brother...i think he will be so dirty later! If you are nice i dun mind if you automatically sign yourself out frm the frost family before you get kicked out! Dun tell me to understand you and your retarded family problem and try to be nice and stop spreading rumors! You are wasting your damn saliva because i wunt stop....you deserve it ! You noe wad i hope....i hope you will have more family problems and cannot stop fighting with ur mum...all the best... i am not interested in listening to ur prob and nobody seem to care...pls figure ur own way out......my words are said and i dun wanna tok anymore! Thank you and got bless you...goodbye and go and eat your shit and die!

Wad rubbishness !

2005-04-02T15:50:00.000+08:00

Choir was kinda good today! Mr Kwei said if we get into the top 5 best choirs, he would treat us to another buffet! Haha...juz like Prague...neva thought we would get category winner and laurette of the festival ! Oh my...hope we do well this year....haizhaiz...pray for us! Well todays entry is about a particular person! He was a very close fiend of my...but today..he is different...I met him during choir and he was wearing a pe t-shirt and school shorts....the shirt was tuck in so i pulled it out....can u imagine someone getting angry over small things like tad...and once again...he was giving me his spoilt child-liked glare...and whispering things about me into other peoples ear...i had to bear with all of tad and keep apologising but people all have their limits....i was so over my limit tad i juz move away on the trip back in the bus.....I juz stuff the ear phones in my ears and sit at the corner then he say i " far xiao jie pi qi" so he can get angry but we cannot....wad rubbish....PL invited me to go to j8 but i did not...i have my reasons and i tink u all should noe....i am so angry now tad i dun tink i will be toking to anyone for days....read my blog cause i will not say a single word ! Good Bye !

A miserable Life

2005-04-02T15:47:00.000+08:00

(Supposed to be an older entry but tad day blog got prob so publish today)Haiz...a very rainy day yesterday...haiz...rainy days spoil my mood....PL still keep acting like Karen from Mean Girls saying he can tell the weather from his breast....hahahha...he was like ermm...todays weather would be 30% cloudy...hahaha....Yesterday was quite horrible for me.....quarrelled with JF in the music room and he started slapping me and when i got so piss, i slapped him even more....did not tok thru art lesson but later friends again....wanted to tok to LN but he is sucking up and playing with his Toy Boy HT...neglecting all of us liao la....sitting beside him and laughing, whispering at the same time flirting with the art teacher.....ohmy...pls know ur limits LN...u r getting very disgusting.....ewwww byatch...Jf finallt tok liao...juz apologise. then can liao, so easy to patch up 1..hahha...quarrelled with my parents yesterday..ask them to sign the dumb maths paper but they started commenting again...like get 1/10 still want me to sign ...u betta blah blah blah...i juz replied dun want to sign neva mind..i ask LT to call you....then i juz snatch the paper back and stomp upstairs....i was already very furious when my father came upstairs and smack me....i turn around and blew up...when i said blew up means really explode....i scream out so loud tad i think my cous got a shock and my head started to hurt....i am really really angry....my father obviously know tad i am very fed up so he stopped....i threw my whole bag on to the floor, together with my tablet Pc inside the bag....lucky neva spoil....haiz....then stomp into the toilet and slam the door...my mother started yelling again...i didnt care...i snuggle into bed and went to sleep! About to fall asleep.....when my cous woke me up....frightened about ghost and stuff....ask me to pass him the torch and on the bedside lamp...he took the torch and i off the lamp....then he shine the torch onto the poster that he was scared of which was Hilary Duff (not hilary teo)....but the torch has no batt so the battery fade into a sort of ring shape thing...he screamed saying "the ring, the ring...ahhhhhh.." lol...i was laughing like mad....haiz....then he jump into my bed and tried to squeeze in...he was on the verge of crying...but later..my father came in and made him sleep on th floor again....haha....wadeva....gotta go...see ya...

Updating for the sake of updating

2005-03-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

Updating for the sake of updating....gotta keep this entry short and sweet...hahha...wadeva..anyway AT and PL came to my house after choir for Study group...today's topic...simultaneous equation ! Haha.....actually did quite some hmk for tad short period of 1 hour....my cous keep disturbing AT and AT keep blasting as well...haha....then dicussing about a sleepover at ZK house during June Holidays....haiz...cannot wait...well i am so busy now...i dun have time to read blogs, play my computer games and hang out with friends....haiz....sound very nerdy but i am not.....so stupid....need to do so much hmk...haiz...gotta go...update more in the other entries la....see ya...God bless!!!

Im memorises for my dearest ipod

2005-03-29T21:11:00.000+08:00

This entry is delicated to my dearest ipod mini !My mini jammed this morning while i was walking to school ! First jam ever since i got you last year ! Haiz........dunno wad to do now....the thing cannot shut down and is heating up terribly...haiz.....*heart ache......updating during Home Econs...Ms DL is so nice lol ! Allow us to do our things during the last ten minutes! ... I feel so numb now.....heart ache after ipod problem....left the thing in my locker for 1 hoour and 40 minutes....then the battery died and finally shut down itself....oh my gawk.........haiz...reach home plug into the charger....everything settled....hahhaa...bad things seem to be happening.....JF just broke CH tablet yesterday....he tripped over the wire and fell...the tablet swing on to the floor and crack....haiz...today get back science paper....not too bad...though not very satisfied...will work harder for the other tests...haiz....*poor CH...now usuing the filthy school tablet..haiz....btw this is the third tablet JF spoil...haiz......todays entry will be focused on LH and ZK.....LN got really angry with me today after i keep disturbing him bout HT...hahaha....He slapped me on my cheeks so hard tad i could feel a screech in my ear...i got up and while he was talking to somebody else, i slapped him really hard.....there was a loud " PIAK" sound and then i walk away...PL was like laughing and OH MY GOD...we had cold war for the next few period then later talk to each other again....so in conclusion....we are actually very very good friends as our friendship is able to last no matter wad happen...misunderstandings may happen but we get over it really fast ! Haiz.....the next person tad i am ( shld i say angry, disppointed or hurt ??? ) with, is ZK....i read his blog and he was toking bout his dumb handphone bill which was $148 plus....oh my...tads alot....crazy.....*teach me to use wad code see la...the code make ur own bill exlode....siao....! His outgoing call was like over 2000 over minutes....tad is super lot....and adds up to over $400, after minusing this and that then it went down....the worst part he say is tad he where got talk so much....must be talking to DC...oh my....so now it is my fault la...i where got tok to him...he everyday conference with GW and KC they all...somemore talk until so long.....so bad one....* ZK if you are reading, my advice to you is to pls talk less....you are some kind of business man is it....so much to talk.....wadeva la....gotta do Joshua hmk liao...see ya

All about my day ?

2005-03-28T09:26:00.000+08:00

Haiz haiz did not update my blog yesterday ? Yesterday was Whorrer ! Oh my god...so much work ! Have to finish the god damn Sc project which is like 30% of my marks this therm ! Aim to get at least 23%haiz ! JJ did not help much, keep sayin ghe very buzy ! Later then send fulme those redundant pictures ! So "helpful"! Actually supposed to finish it on Sat but PL nd God Bro came and like talk and play ! So at the meantime LN and me work out solutions and finished the project ! Stupid LN.....send me all those stup long long lines of words ! Need to help him make it fit into the book, in the end print over 5 times ! Waste ink and paper ! All those dumb paragrph so long.......hate it ..hate u 4ever u noe LN ! Very angry with you LN ! Then talk to my cous for a while as he is staying with me for 1 week ! When to the hospital to visit my grandmother undergo an operation for her leg. Brought my sis to see chinese physician due to her bad fall and frozen at 11.45 ! This morning Guo Wei helped us design the project ! Went for ZA practical lesson and did experiments on disgusting liver and meat....so ewwwwwww....God Bro i am going to clean my hands on your face..muah hahahha.....better watch out ! Ok, finally reached home and can continue the other part of my entry ! Maths lesson was...very hurtful ! My previous class test tad i studied real hard for is darn bad ! Only 2 person in the whole class passed with the highest score of 6 1/2 ...oh my rite ! LN got 1 1/2 JJ got 1 and JF got 2...i got a miserable 1...now my mum is very angry with me ! I really wonder when she will understand...haiz....Stupid LT....like very happy after failing 90 over % of the class.....wad a bitch.......LT i hope you will die a horrible death....

My entry today is focused on this part tad i am writing now.....MH.....( tink u shld all noe hu it is ) I am starting to hate tad fat bitch alot.....today she was supposed to choose a representative to join the bilingual speech compeition...she was asking around and picking the boys wh did well for both their languages.....As usual nobody wanted to join....people started to "sarbo" each other and the usual Nicholas Kang was mentioned ! NK didnt wanted to join so MH called out a few more names....all rejected...she was rather irritated. Out of my horror, MH called out my name....i tink she shld noe tad my languages this term is rather poor but i dunno why she is doing this. I shook my head but she suddenly put the paper on my desk and said i dun care ! You dun want to join you go and find someone else ! Eefing god damn bitch ! This is really unfair ! Of all people why must it be me to do all this dumb jobs ! I hate her forever ! MH is totally bias.....i thank you LN....you are a god damn bitch as well ! "sarbo" me rite....take that back ! I wrote LN name on the paper and showed LN....he was shocked...and now it belongs to him...because he took the paper...he changed the name to his SCANDAL "HT" ! They returned the paper to MH and she asked whether is that a joke! The problem was settled later when MH threatened AH to join or else she would remove her APL position ! wadeva it is.....i am still very angry with her...and LN.......

Choir today was better then usual la ! This might be the last prac with Mr Kwei before our SYF....Mr Kwei said we will confirm get a GOLD but need the X factor then can get GOLD WITH HONOURS ! ( So LN shut ur god damn mouth....choir will never get a sliver or below...maybe EL will ).....Haiz...dunno wad to write liao la....muz eat dinner then later muz do lots of work....See Ya!

A very Sad Life!

2005-03-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

Haiz....starting without anymore titles ! My life is very miserable...very sad !Well, someone tad used to be very close to me in primary school has found stead...mixed feeling inside me and dun feel like writing it on my blog( oso prevention from salacious gossip ) Tink so far only 2 person will understand wad i am writing la !Haiz.....feel kinda sad yet have to act happy at the same time ! To the 2 person i talked to, pls dun tell anyone ok! Promise me ! Todays choir feels rather bad....i dun feel kinda good...tkss cwss and vs all perform today at the singapore conference hall ! We were the first to reherse today and were also the first to perform ! Then we were given a break to go eat breakfast but we got lost at the lau par sar district ! Finally found the Mac and realised only have 20 minutes left ! Wads more, the walk back is like already 10 mins...so we bought our food which took 5 minutes and tried gobbling in 5 mins but got not enuf time so we ran and ate at the same time ! AG bought Big Breakfast so he ran and ate his bog breakfast holding a big plate on 1 hand and a fork on the other . Dash across many roads and nearly got knocked down by cars ! AT got stuck on 1 side of the road as he did not dare to cross...the others just dash ! Oh my , if DL sees this we are screwed ! Then when back for warm ups but realised DL did not zip his pants so as he was conducting the hole open and close open and close like a fish mouth !Hahaha...the new porn star ...hahahaha...then we performed and after us was tkss which was rather the same then was cwss which was very funny.....the girl standing on the left of the stage with the chop sticks was whoradous ! Oh my goodness ...she was swinging like a viking ship like noboy business! It was really EXTRA...it is not tad she is swinging because of the amount of strength used to sing but for the sake of acting ! EWWWWW......KC says she is drumming her breast ! Hahhahaha...wad an odd drummer ! After tad went home and PL wanted to follow ! LN, JJ and ZK came ! LN and JJ was here to do project but did not really do much now rushing like mad ! ZK and PL juz drop by for fun! At night, found out tad my sis fell and injure herself ! Her leg is sprained and her lips got a small cut ! Ouch ! Quite bad ! seeing an ( i dunno how to spell ) tmr ? is it osteoporosis??? haiz wadeva ! Didnt eben tell me when she fall so my mum kind of angry with me ! The dumb mini project is not really done ! Muz start working real hard 4 it ! Haiz ! Hate it ! LN somemore send me tose useless stuff ! Really helpless now !

Worst Day Ever!

2005-03-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

hey...wadeva...lets start this whorrible shitty entry by talking bout wad happen today ! I realised alot of things just in 1 day...alot of things....today was a very normal day ....Gw and Kc were attending their motivation course. I was in school with my other good friends...Zk was crying in the library...the horrible thing started during Project Work....Ming Han called me a gay and in return i called him Mother F***er and he wacked me real hard on my leg...hate him 4ever.....then had lunch wif 2 friends in J8 and had a slow walk to my house to have some sort of study group ! Half way through we were talking bout my 2 dogs...saying they were really big and scary...but when they reached my house, they realised my dogs were really small only....haiz....one of my friend got angry...and.......................!Haiz...we had our small study group but got distracted instead and started playing com games....one of my friend was helping me to figure out one maths sum...and he got the answer right ! He continued doing the rest while the other 2 of us played our games....he felt we were misusing him...but in fact the other friend told him to stop doing and rest,,,pls it is public holiday the next day so have a break la....besides tad we were also rather annoyed by the EH LUK sound.....haiz haiz....then we went down to play wif my dogs....one of my friend was terrified wif my dogs and did not dare to touch them....we tried encouraging him by showing him the dog is not scared...i carried my dog and brought it towards him...scaring him away ! He was very angry and stormed upstairs and took his bag and stormed out of the house ! I was terribly shocked tad a good friend of my would treat me like this....the other friend was speechless....i cannot accept the fact tad he looked at me wif tose hateful eyes like i was his enemy.....i was hurt...deeply...mentally....emotionally... did not concentrated during tuition, was thinking bout all my friends...later god bro called and invited me into his conference...wif a few other freinds....tad was the wrost conference...but it did not make me feel better but worst...hurt even more like a thousand knife stabbed into my broken heart and the knifes are hold by a closest friend of my whom i met in prague....ever since then i trusted him more than i trust anyone else....now the only one i trust is god...i am very disappointed....in both myself and .....! I am crying as i typed this entry and i am not replying any sms or calls...i feel like tad is this diesease that is spreading around my friends...and day by day i will have conflict with one by one of them....i dun want to hurt anyone else and most of all i dun wanna hurt tad person hu visited me today ! I am really sorry for what i've done and i would not mind even if you all were to hate me 4ever...juz received a message frm god bro ....a very depriving and hurtful message...it is ok...i am too prone to these liao.....and i dun blame my god brother because he is facing his difficulties as well, cheer up god bro....i shall not write anymore...the more i write the more knife will start piercing me....enough...no more...good bye

A Day filled with tears and sorrow!!

2005-03-23T06:46:00.000+08:00

(A Day Filled With Tears And Sorrow!)

Oh My Goodness...i studied so hard for tad dumb maths test and yet this is wad it is gonna become....so difficult....aim to get 7 marks and above but i guess....Haiz....Hate LT forever.....u byatch...gonna work real hard for the other tests...last term not paying too much attention so chapters last term suck alot...This term i am giving my fullest attention to lessons and do well for next weeks class test...thank god ...total of 10 tests , average out and take 10%...wheeewwww....or else i sure die.....

Working very very very hard from now.

Today could be said as ( title), started with my Maths test ,then got a sec 2 boy get knock down by a taxi ! After that is ZK feeling really sad...then the eefing ming han and his ass hole friends added fuel to the fire, he pointed at ZK and said something rather insulting ( cannot remember...dun wanna remember )ZK was totally shocked...its like he does not even noe Ming Han lol...neva seen ZK so sad before....then is small quarrel with AT..then is the rain....then is this then is that...everything seem rather unhappy....haiz haiz...feeling really moody now... cheering up everybody...but nobody seems to be....(haiz)...sometimes i have tad same feeling as ZK as well...trying to please everyone but nobody seems to like.......? Choir was really dumb today did nothing much and was realesed earlier...rain heavily ..so i cannot walk home...did a small study group meeting with PL and AT...then i walk home the rain and here i am typing my blog pouring out stuff from my heart...

My life is changing very rapidly and my stress level have reached its limit...Sec 2 is really a .....really hope i was the one getting knock down by that taxi and go into coma for a week or two before waking up to reality.I looked for someone to talk to but nobody seem to be there to give me a hand share my sorrows ! Its my dinner time so i will stop writing here !

Comforting myself although very disappointed with myself as well ! Haiz

Evrybody else...cheer up ok !

Check It out

2005-03-22T18:52:00.000+08:00

(Check It Out)

Hey hey, check out the music video by the side on my blog....it is Lindsay Lohan's over...latest single...video super scandalous lol....ewwww...hey hey becareful wad u click at jun feng's blog...at a certain spot u click they would give a warning then after a few times ur com will jam...haiz haiz...today ia a very very very boring day..so very sianz...( philip i have the same feelings as u now )

aniwae..LT is still very crazy...come into class and punish all those without txtbk to stand outside...so dumb...class smart liao la...all bring txtbk....so nobody gets punish....then have tad 3 hours long Lifeskills Programme....causing us to miss my fave History with TF and Home ec with DL....thought could escape the home ec project but DL still remember so muz hand in tmr...nobody seems to care so i guess noone will hand in except Yuan Tat la....suck up byatch....Lifeskills is like toking bout wad conflicts we have and when the teacher ask hu we have conflict with...everyone says Mr Wong Chee Seng aka our retarded form teacher hu tinks he is psychic and as smart as the prime minister, his fave phrase...i know wad the prime minister is thinking you all......totall dumb.....byatch...then is helping AT and PL to make blog....PL is mad....change template 3 times today liao...hahaha...AT still trying hard...after recess was ZA's period....oh my god...she suddenly say got wad stupid mini project to do and hand up on monday....takes up 20%...whole class forgotten....still got bio journal....take up 10%....ohmy goodness me.....the stup bio journal hand in on april something la....but it is like i havent even take down any notes for bio lol.....pray tad i do well....dun wanna get the " so not my type" results again....tomorrow still got Maths mini class test....betta study harder....dunno whether got take into total results or not...LT's mini is like 1 test 10% and the other 20% cause me to do so badly last term....learn frm my mistake liao...take every test seriously, dun care whether taken or not taken into total results....haiz....went straight home frm school after tad...did not do much...betta start revising on ALGEBRA....so much to study...got dunno wad highest common factor and all the (a+b)^2 and (a^2-b^2) and all the factorisation and changing of subject....pray 4 me guys.....

Laid Back Again....so stress gonna get depression.....

(Blog Lagging!)

2005-03-22T10:47:00.000+08:00

(Blog Lagging!)
Haiz..totally blog craziness...all "f" book member have blogs now ! Haiz Haiz...heehhee...hey just warning...recently blogspot has been lagging abit.....haiz...Help Andrew made his blog liao...philip as well..both have really nice blogs now...except tad needs ammements....haiz haiz...Now publish an entry oso take quite a while be4 getting into the original blog....wadeva...Zalinah lesson..betta stop...

First day??Haiz!

2005-03-21T19:06:00.000+08:00

(First Day??Haiz!)

Well, first day if term 2 is over, i shoul say Term 2 has become more pressurizing....My day starts with Lawrence Tan and his bad mood ( which he say he is not ). He came into class and scream at all of us...punishing tose people who's textbook is not on the table...wadeva ! He says he is going to be very strict with us and expects the whole class to get distinction for maths...( will try somehow ).Then he started teaching simultaneous equations ! Thank god Joshua taught me during the last tuition so i understand wad he is doing ! Haiz Haiz...Oh and i missed out Mrs Zalinah Ang who gave us a sudden small project to do that is related to Digestion( The next chpt we r studying )....kinda of a rush work because we have like only 5 mins to present and 30 mins to do ! Heard that my group got 5 out of 10 ! Highest is 6.5/10...wadeva la ! Then is Miss Hua hu i think is the best teacher in the world ! Miss Hua is a very inspiring teacher hu neva gives up on her pupils, although she is bias and liked the scouts better, ithink she is the best teacher anyone could have ! Bla Bla bla ...then was dismissal and after tad choir ! I always looked forward to choir prac as we always hav something fun to do ! Haha ! Mr Kwei was not very satisfied with out previous performance at Siglap so he drill us real hard today ! Haiz....neva mind at least i enjoyed it ! Meet up with Gw and Zk later ! Gw has just finished working on his new blog ! Damn cool , check it out later ! Gotta stop now liao ...going for dinner ! See Ya...

(All about Lennart!!)

2005-03-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

(All about Lennart!)
Haiz....updating blog during chinese period !Hahahaha....so free...aniwae this entry is delicated to Lennart ! Hahaha...actually wanted to write a song or poem but no feeling today la ! Actually i wrote a song for him before using the BREAKAWAY tune to compose ! But the song is quite vulgar and explicit ! Haiz haiz ! Lennart is like sucking up so much to miss hua ! Oh my is like Miss hua came into class today, Lennart purposely like clean the board in front of her ! How nice ! But Lemony Snicket ( did i spell it correctly ) is quite nice at times oso ! He gave me an apology letter tad day ! lol ! Dismissal already la , betta stop writing liao ! See ya !

My really precious Sunday is gone !

2005-03-20T15:31:00.000+08:00

(My really precious Sunday is gone!)

Ok...This entry have to be quick...got not much time ,

Haiz my poor Sunday...taken up by all my maths homework and science stuff ! So god-damn busy !Cannot even take a last day break before dumb school reopen ! Haiz haiz ! So sad ! School reopen tomorrow, so much stuff to do, dun even noe whether hav time to write in mi blog again! Going to cry ! Just recommended my tuition teacher to Zheng Kai, he wants to change tuition teacher , so recommend him my strict teacher lol ! Oh my , he called my teacher liao and is very keen in changing ...Zheng kai is gong to have the same tuitor as me ...oh my...!So much homework ! *weep weep ! Already finish school 1 so long ago but all these seem to be endless ! Sos...save me !

I am really sorry

2005-03-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

(I am really sorry !)

Sometimes i dunno why all these bad things happen to me and i get really hurt when a friend misunderstand me! Tears get into my eyes whenever i think about all this wrong things that i have done Haiz....

Sorry to all that was harmed by me ! Haiz...

Can my life get any worst with the huge pile of tuition homework i,ve received ! Oh my god it is like 4 chapters of Maths and each chapter has 30 sums and another maths assesment book which have like 50 sums and i have only done like 8...so bitched up rite now ! Feel like dying !

A very good lunch!

2005-03-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

(A very good lunch!)

Haiz Haiz,

Choir was as horrible as last week ! though we sounded the a little better, is still have this strong feeling we are not gonna get gold with honours ? Praying real hard ! Well, we sang today with all the other Mr Kwei choirs ! Oh my....they all sounded very the same as us ! VS was rather ewwwww, cwss was worst then be4 tkss are singing their dumb prague songs ! Wadeva, pls lol already silver overseas..still bother trying in singapore, pls la......so dumb...no other songs to sing is it ! After choir Mark Tan gave a rather interesting speech ! Motivating, funny yet insulting ! Haiz! The funniest stuff he said was girls are the bitchest creature and standing near us were a whole group of girls! Hahahha...should see the look on their face ! Asked Gedeon to today, who gave him my blog but got some weird reply ! Stupid Rayston came to school today with one of the colours of our "f" bands ! ohmylicious ! It is supposed to be the significance of the "f" book members ! Wad a byatch ! Hate him forever ! Spoil the whole thing! Then was the best part of my day ! The delicious lunch! Totally yummilicious ! Oh my why am i using so many "licious" word ! Haiz probably because i like it ! Had lunch with Zheng Kai , Lennnart and Philip in Cartel ! The others are hateful creatures because all back out with so many reasons ! Shared lunch with philip ! The portion is huge ! We had 1 gigantic pork rib and 1 huge bbq pizza ! Lennart had 1 southern something chicken ! Haiz aka KFC chicken, taste totally the same ! Zheng kai had Dory Fish ! Then Kennny appeared together with Aaron Gian ! Kenny helped us with the pizza ! Lennart and me messing around with the food ! Hahahaha ! Hey, guess how much is the bill ??? $67 and dunno how many cents ! Oh my rite ! So ver ex....but hu cares...as long as we enjoyed the lunch , I think it is really worth it ! Oh almost forgotten about Miss Seah, her dressing today is a total fashion disaster ! Somemore wear extremely weird sun glasses ! Oh god !

Really have to start doing homework ! End off here !

The very weird yet nice and funny guo wei !

2005-03-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

(The very weird yet nice and funny Guo Wei)

HiHi,

Guo Wei and Zheng Kai visited me today ! So funny lol....visit me really really often lol ! Guo Wei created his blog in my house ,the blog is damn cool lol, check it out !Guo Wei is really funny, he brought a really "rayston" shirt to my house !When i say very rayston means really ugly ! It is like all checkered with blue squares and is really really really ewwwwwwwwww! They just finished shopping with kenny and even bought us very nice wrist bands from giordano.It matches our pen colour in our "f"book ! hahahhaha...so sweet !Guo Wei was like my tuition teacher today lol ! Teaching me how to do english !Hahaha....muz say his engliah quite good !Haiz...i am so glad i have a freind like Guo Wei !

Ending off here la ! I think i wrote 2 entries today !Hahaha...

Hey tag me a message if you all want to ask me anything !See Ya

Sunshine after a storm,Wad a nice day !

2005-03-18T11:40:00.000+08:00

(Sunshine after a storm , Wad a nice day!)
HiHi,
Updating once again ! Well, i'm kinda glad Lennart and me have ended that big misunderstanding and now best friends again ! Haiz Haiz ! Aniwae , Lennart and Zheng Kai visited me yesterday after their movie "hitch" ! Wanted to watch with them but wasn't given permission la ! Sort of grounded bcos of bad results, cannot go anywhere ! Guo Wei left immediately after the movie which ended at 12.50 becos he has tuition at 1! Hahaha wad a joke ! Lennart gave me an apology card, very nice ! i am kinda sorry for wad a did as well ! (So sorry Lennart, hope we dun quarrel again ok ?) Then while chatting in my room, Jun Feng called , we wanted to play a nice trick on him so we answered the phone in different voices ! We were like " Hi Darling, Why didn't u answer my call last nite ? Were u out with another woman? I hate u 4ver ! ......."Hahaha , then Jun Feng got angry and started sending all of us rude messages ! Hope he will not be so angry after a while !
Went to Ikea last nite to buy furniture for my room ! Seriously need a drawer ! At the same time, celebrate my parents 15 aniversary ! Hahaha!
Think i end off here, gotta o get change and do lots of homework ! Woke up late today la ! Happiness is peace!

Almost forgot , check out Kenny's blog ! It is totally sCaNdAlouS and ohmylicious ! Oh my !

Can this day get any worst !

2005-03-18T10:25:00.000+08:00

(Can this day get any worse)

HiHi,
Updating my blog again Haiz...yesterday sux ! First is Lennart's problem' then is with Zheng kai ! I really wonder hu will be next ?? Zheng Kai was angry with me because i asked him to help me settle the conflict between Lennart and me and he became the middle man ! must be really hard on him ! Sorry Zheng Kai ! Lennart on the other hand thinks that Jun Feng , Jing Jie and me are making use of him to achieve our goals ???? Huh...i dun get it ?? How do we make use of him leh ?? We have our own hands and legs , can't we like work towards wad we want ourself ? It is not as if we are handicapped rite ! Dumbness ! Choir prac was okay yesterday except tad i feel we sounded worst ! Sometimes during rehersals i feel kinda sad and bored ! I am all alone standing by myself in tenor and as for all my good friends ....all in sop ! Worst is tad a few of them is not in syf...example Guo Wei ! Guo Wei became one of my closest friend in Prague ! Dunno why ? it is kinda funny ...we use to be enemies last year then this year best friends. Prague is a miracle trip ! Hahahaha !Wadeva it is ..Haiz.....My results sux ....cannot use computer any longer ! Muz work harder! Tuition starting any minute now, will update blog very soon again !
PS: Zheng Kai's new blog is link final-drifting.blogspot.com ( It is already linked by the side )

Lennart's Craziness!

2005-03-16T15:40:00.000+08:00

( Lennart's Craziness )
Hey ,
Can someone tell me what is going on with lennart ? He seem to be very angry with me lately i dunno wad wrong have i done but he is kinda mad ?
He refuses to tok to Jun feng as well! He is probably angry because we wanted to kick him out of the "f" Book or maybe it is because i keep teasing him about his lover Hilary Teo. Lennart likes hilary alot lol! You can see ....He always flare up on us and even screamat us but when he dosen't treat hilary the same way. Oh my...Latest Scandal ! It is kinda obvious as well because Lennart is forever with Hilary and always talking very sweetly to him. Eewwwww.....Lennart always does projects with Jun Feng, Jing jie and me and he always think he is the one doing everything ! Like real ! Everytime he say he do this do that , in the end it is also not done! So......
*( Lennart if you r reading this, this message is meant for you, just shut ur mouth and think of all the things you have done and whether you have done them yourself or with our help ...Oh and stop Bitching as and when you like , you are not only annoying me but many many many people as well, wadeva Byatch)

A Brand New Start!

2005-03-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

( A brand new start )
Hi guys,
This is my latest blog, Ive deleted the others already.Aniwae, i am still working on this blog like the tag board and others.Zheng Kai is helping me.Wadeva it is...